Trust me, my words are my hauntings

When the things that I've said are the things that I lived

In the places I wept, with the people I wished that I could have kept closely

That was the old me

If you ever felt lost in a place that you should have felt safe

Then it's not just you when they say that regret is not to be had

'Cause the past should be left where you had it

But I'm sorry for the things that I've done and the people I've hurt

Man, I hate who I was, and the worst of it is

There's a person I've hurt who I can't ever say this to

'Cause they're six feet deep

It would wreck me and take the best of me

All the years and the anger, projecting to those who protected me.

Trying my hardest to be who I said I'd be

Hoping I get there eventually

It's not your fault that I'm lost and I'm hopeless

But they told me things I believe, like I'm broken

And I can't be loved, so I hide from the whole world

What is this feeling? I feel like it's over

It's hard to be better when I don't feel worthy

The loneliness stays, and the happiness all leaves

And how will I ever be anything worth seeing

When you tell me things I believe that are not me?

Crying when I think of the words that were used as a weapon—so sickening,

Struggling to breathe as a child

'Cause the pain and anxiety we had had a grip on our innocence

Being called names that we grew up to believe in

And living with a trauma that still can't leave us

Life's been a journey that's always had detours

Started with the music I needed my sequel.

I'd leave it all behind if I could, but I can't

Drawn to the pain like a permanent brand.

Marked me with a future you thought I would crash

Now I pick up the pieces you broke from my past

But there's one thing in common I know that we have

When the music is on, you will sit and you'll listen

Like life is attached to a moment of freedom

You're feeling the peace and the sadness and slight inhibition, 'cause

It's not your fault that I'm lost and I'm hopeless

But they told me things I believe, like I'm broken

And I can't be loved, so I hide from the whole world

What is this feeling? I feel like it's over

It's hard to be better when I don't feel worthy

The loneliness stays, and the happiness all leaves

And how will I ever be anything worth seeing

When you tell me things I believe that are not me?

Can you see it? The brokenness it's been harder to miss

They notice unease when it's out of control and not as we planned

It hits me like bricks, but why do we try

Waking up living a day-to-day life?

Get lost in a time and pretend to exist

And say everything's fine with a smile that defines

All the sadness that's hidden within

You're scared and so am I

What if we fail? And there's no goodbye

And I couldn't protect who I need in life

And measure success on the things we buy

Then happiness fades on a thinning line

With an ambush of thoughts every single night

We're left in a place that we tried to escape

And become so attached to we're sitting tight

It's not your fault that I'm lost and I'm hopeless

But they tell me things I believe, like I'm broken

And I can't be loved, so I hide from the whole world

What is this feeling? I feel like it's over

It's hard to be better when I don't feel worthy

The loneliness stays, and the happiness all leaves

And how will I ever be anything worth seeing

When you tell me things I believe that are not me?