25 years have passed and I'm looking back like how did I do it

All of the memories made in my younger days, I don't wanna lose them

My word is bond, my soul is strong, I'm giving my all to the music

My grass is cut, my guard is up for anyone tryna confuse me

They amuse me, my head to the sky, I'm feeling the vibe

The flowers, they just started blooming, teachers told us that we wouldn't still be alive

I'm in the back row at they funerals, I'm pushing more P than a urinal

They wanna throw dirt on the movement

Ask the Lord to forgive all the **** that try me

For they did not know what they doing

When Granny died, I felt my heart get frozen, that's when I first started smoking

Mad at the world, first time I broke down in front of a girl, it made us closer

When Bravo died, all the thoughts weighed on my mind, like how could I not see the signs

Gone so soon, right now you be 22, your music get played all the time

When Metri died, the first thing I thought about was all the family you left behind

Carry your name forever, so even in stormy weather, I promise you shine

When Sparta died, I couldn't believe it, a musical genius, I miss our discussions

You was like family, but it's so crazy that after you died, I found out we was cousins

I got a mountain of pain that I carry, it's scary that I see the evil in me

People tell me that my pain game is lethal, but don't understand what this shit mean to me

25 years, if you could go back to the start of it all, when you was a kid

Would you try to change your past, or would you just watch and leave things the way that they is?