First drug was Flintstones kids vitamins

I used to eat a bottle if my mom would leave a bottle out

She found it out and I was banned from the cabinet

Never had a chance to enhance but I imagined it

Went from vitamins to mom’s mental health pills

She felt ill, and I got it ‘cause it felt real

Wanted to know why my mother was trippin’

A fatherless daughter that’s stuck in a mother’s position, publicly trippin’

Second grade, didn’t fuck with ****

They laughed when my mother came to pick me up in slippers

Raggy sweatshirt, funky sweatpants

What made it worse is when she saw me she said, “lets dance”

Diagnosed as a schizophrenic

She was lost in hell, I just kissed up in it

But I was an ugly nerd obsessed with a lovely bird

And a brain plagued with muddy words

You know I love my mother

I just, never got a chance to express how that shit felt

You know? Like, in that time period

Ma I love you, I precede your strength, On everything I love, thank you

Smoked blunts like the weed wasn’t rolled in it

Couldn’t roll but my bowl overflowed with it

I had no business doing dro, then it got too beautiful

Started using blow, if you ain’t know, I gotta home in a UFO

If you were close to me, you could go with me

But if not, you move to slow, back to the matter baby

I never thought that I could lose control

Until I crashed when my stupid nose started leaking fluid

Stupid to assume that blow was cruise control

Fuck it, I ain’t got no use for a soul

‘Cause I don’t walk, I float, so

My sole purpose is to let my soul reach the sol

S-O-L, the sun, believe the UV can solve anything, like VE

It’s after 6 in the winter

Darkness, passion in mid December

Bitch remember

I’m sorry, you know I didn’t mean to call you a bitch, you know

Sometimes I just zone out, the voices, too many people

They say people lead you to the needle

And since I’m your favorite drug, do you believe that people are evil?

So what do we do? My phantom of the heart strings

Who be standing in the dark with a man that isn’t all me

It should be me or the best car currency could buy in Dubai, but certainly a ride

Something that rides, perfectly on life’s course

This road can make a **** question himself, like a white corpse

It’s black and white, got guys watching crimes more

‘cause it’s time for minds to soar like before

Your wings might be sore but life is four times more

When you spend you life’s height tryna find your spinal cord

Hide from what? pick a vice live your life, get it right

Can’t live it twice unless you live a lie

If so, **** die, no one listens to you

Very few can exist in the truth, here’s proof

Charles Hamilton

Sometimes I feel like I gotta die, and come back to life

Just to prove