i hope this pill is my last

i done like ran through the stash

i done like ran outta tabs

ain't gon be old when i pass

yeah, yeah

ain't gon be old when i pass

die young, yeah, fast

uh, only 18, i been chasin' my dreams

but the older i get, less they matter to me

feels like time's runnin' low so these pills keep me slow

but they gon' be the reason that i'm gon' od

death's appealing to me 'cause i'm never at peace

'less i'm high or asleep or i'm puffin' that weed

step dad beat my brother again, won't see him turn 14

must think shit sweet but i'll get violent when it comes to my lil g

give everything i got to see lil bro become who he wanna fuckin' be

if anybody fucks him up, on my life, i'll put 'em 6 feet deep

it's fucked up shit, i know it is but i'll get raw all on this beat

you can see it in my face that i got a problem when i'm tryna eat

say what you want 'cause i know i ain't shit but a junked up rappin' ambitionless fiend

loveable face but i'm just so drained, an empty personality

used to cut my wrists when shit got bad, now i just spark up with that weed

i'ma kill myself poppin' these pills, it just don't seem bad to me

i had to sleep, mad at the world, maybe i'm just like mad at me