Pour one up for my late brother

Nearly joined him the same way he went guttered

Suicide is a bitch, I almost went shuttered

Until I stopped it with a pen and then I finally gained a purpose

This fucking music be my only drug

Who needs painkillers? This shit be my only love

When I thought I was falling, it was my only dove

But now I'm saved and I'm flying higher than everyone

Okay, I'm not really saved, but hey, I'm getting there

I still got problems and shit, but hey, I'm getting there

And I'ma do this on my own terms

Fuck a ghostwriter, everything I say my own words

I take my life and lay it out to you, I'm moving forward

And when the devil asks for my soul, I'll tell him, "No, sir"

But man, it's getting hard to control, my head to toes hurt

This shit is getting wild, I wish life would have a brochure

I'm sorry for this lyrical bull, I'll just be overt

How the fuck do I got this many friends, but still a loner?

How the fuck have I seen this many deaths, but still I stand?

How the fuck with all this instability I made a plan?

Normally none of that shit tends to go hand in hand

But I never was normal, why should I start playing pretend?

For truth I'm ten toes deep in these rhymes, I'll never bend

For no goofy motherfuckers that try to question my pen

These rappers pig pen material, I'd bring 'em to an end

My doggy told me that I always think my rhymes are heaven-sent, like

Oh well, you know me so well

I'll go back to bumping Mac, then I'll start proving what I tell

And while I don't believe above as an option, I know for sure

That in this life that I've been living, I've seen heaven and hell

Very well, I've come to terms that in this life I won't tap out

I've thought of the eighteenth word, but I won't back out

And when the rapping starts to pay off, I'm gonna cash out

Assuming that the stress don't make me, ha

Humour always helped me cope, can you blame me?

I haven't really felt a hundred percent, especially lately

Goddamn, what woulda happened if the tunes didn't save me?

Goddamn, what woulda happened if I wasn't here paving this path?

'Cause after all the trauma and the bullshit that I had

I had to go through, shoulda ended up a sad sack

But looking where I am, I ain't really half bad

I can't believe I'm saying this, but damn, I'm kinda glad, like

But damn, I'm kinda glad, like

But damn, I'm kinda, fuck

Poor one up for my late brother

Nearly joined him the same way he went guttered

Suicide is a bitch, I almost went shuttered

Until I stopped it with a pen and then I finally gained a purpose

This fucking music be my only drug

Who needs painkillers? This shit be my only love

When I thought I was falling, it was my only dove

But now I'm saved and I'm flying higher than everyone

Okay, I'm not really saved, but hey, I'm getting there

I still got problems and shit, but hey, I'm getting there

I'm trying to break all of the family curses

Last one is a son, I'll make sure their childhood's perfect

I wish that early life was better, life was never certain

But thank God everybody sucks so I can write these verses

Sometimes I wish that life had more rehearsing

Woulda made it easier to prep for shit that wasn't working

Counterpoint confusion is the sauce that brings the purpose to life

If you got nothing to learn, than it's a halt till you die

That's why I try to face it head on

Shout out to yetosky, he always kept my head on

Shout out to LG, helping me keep my head strong

Woulda said it to RV, but he done been gone

They asking 'bout this energy that I done been on

The truth is that I gotta fight 'em just to keep going

I wanna a wife, three kids, wanna live long

But I can't do that if it means the blood will keep flowing

And I won't bring it down till I got my own shit together

'Cause no matter how hard I try, the damage last forever

The best thing that I could do is try to pick petals

It's not perfect, but umbrellas help in shitty weather

Shout out my guardian angel, Mama, you brought me peace

The second person to that is me, would you believe?

I count the people I trust fully on three fingers

But I just wanna make the change so I can be free

I'll be surrounded by them angels one day

No, I don't mean by death, I mean the blessings I'll face

Saved my karma for the winter, knock on wood, stand in place

Let it happen, bro, nothing gonna get in my way

I'ma do this for my brother, rest in peace, goddamn

I'ma do this for my cousin, rest in peace, goddamn

I'ma do this for my mama, I won't do it for no crowd

Hope that I can finally make it, Ma, I hope I made you proud

I hope I made you proud

I hope I made you proud

I hope I made you proud

Poor one up for my late brother

Nearly joined him the same way he went guttered

Suicide is a bitch, I almost went shuttered

Until I stopped it with a pen and then I finally gained a purpose

This fucking music be my only drug

Who needs painkillers? This shit be my only love

When I thought I was falling, it was my only dove

But now I'm saved and I'm flying higher than everyone

Okay, I'm not really saved, but hey, I'm getting there

I still got problems and shit, but hey, I'm getting there, man

Fuck

Man, I really needed to let that all out, god damn

Thank you so much for listening to the album, MAYBE LATER, Yetibois, J.B.S. and Yetosky

That was fuckin'— Wow!

Uh, big ups to all the features, everyone that pulled through;

Wcked, Classi, Camo, Toxi, Monte, and HBK

For p- do- doing this for like fully last minute

Oh my fuckin' god—

I’m so proud of this fuckin' project

Also, by the way, I just wanna say, fuck ****

You guys know who you are, you're some bitch ass motherfuckers

If I ever dissed someone on the album, it was you

Hahaha!

Fuck man, ah, and I really wanna say, I know I said it earlier, but shoutout to Yetosky

You didn't fuckin' hear his voice at all, but he's the main man behind all the production that you heard today

He is a fuckin' talented—

Really fuckin' talented motherfucker

He is one of my best friends

One of my favorite people to talk to

And I'm privileged to have someone like that in my life

Uh, Rest in peace, Neveah

Rest in peace, uh, my brother, Kirk

Um...

I love you mom, I love you

All my sisters

Everyone

Thank you all for so much fuckin' helping me with this...

This— I thought this album would be done in a month

But here we are

This—, This was such a great experience and...

I mean I'm not gonna say I'm there, but fuck...

I'm on my way, Mom

I'm on my way, Mom

I'm on my way