In the mirror, a fractured gaze

Every inch of skin is torn a thousand ways,

Losing trust in my reflection my eyes only feed me lies.

Nothing, convincing.

Dressed in flesh I’m still a ghost despite what you may say.

Fixation. Hiding in fear, anticipate rejection. Isolation.

It’s getting harder just to look at my face every fucking day. This person staring back at me I fucking hate.

Losing grip through my frustrations, old obsessions no exceptions.

Why am I living with no peace given?

My mind is never in line with my worn empty frame.

*growl*

Forged in fear, I learned self-hate.

Don’t tell me that it’s nothing, because it’s hell for me.

With the blood I still have left to give up, it would be for nothing.

I hate all of me, standard image, safety’s loss my concern.

Even needs will do something deep to the trust of evil people, bleed the sun.

All in the name of group-held standards, done then, dead in my hand everything.

Wait, for, them and bow. See them closer. Feed hate to the brim, and choke.

Eat lies.

Why can’t I, escape from inside? We hold nothing, in absent mind. I see major, you say it’s light. Stitch breaks from the seems, you to live a lie.

*long yell*

We have, we have sessions. In ending, we have come to, it doesn’t matter anymore than you do.

I’ll never be this version you expect of me.

This lens of deception,

I only want to see the truth.

Please set me free, display the truth,

Correct old vision.