My whole life, they told me something was wrong with me

And for my whole life.. I fought 'em. Told 'em they were wrong

Then came the flash of light. December '23

And the wiring that was already frayed.. it just snapped

I spent my childhood in a series of white-walled rooms

Staring at some therapist who was tryin' to predict my doom

They'd ask me how I'm feelin, but I'd never say a thing

'Cause how the hell do you describe the chaos that the silence brings?

So I was labeled, I was a problem, another broken toy

Just a difficult, misunderstood, angry white boy

And I carried that damn title like a cross upon my back

The proof that I was different, always headed for the crack

Years later, found another one, an office clean and bright

He listened to my story 'bout the flash of blinding light

He heard about the darkness, the struggle, and the dread

Then tried to jam a bunch of fuckin' happy pills inside my head

He said"Son, with trauma like this, you're disabled, can't you see?""You never have to work again, just let the system be"

I stood up from his leather chair and looked him in the eye

Said"You don't know a goddamn thing" and left without goodbye

'Cause I was a problem, a glitch inside the code

Carryin' a heavy, unexplainable load

I was a problem, the one they couldn't fix

Just a walking cocktail of my own destructive tricks

But the darkness kept on comin, I finally hit a wall

Had to make another phone call before I lost it all

And in that waitin' room, at twenty-eight, the panic hit me hard

My whole life's defenses shattered, every single playin' card

For the first time in my life, I started to believe the lie

That maybe I was broken, that maybe I should die

So I walked into that new room, ready to admit the sin

Of being me. I finally broke, let all the poison in

The tears I'd held for years came down, I couldn't stop the flood

I told him"Man, they're right, I am the problem, it's in my blood"

I waited for the judgment, for the nod and for the pills

For him to tell me all about my long list of social ills

But he just leaned in, and he looked at me, and said with a calm grace"There's not a single goddamn thing that's wrong with this whole place"

He said"That engine in your head that never seems to stop?"That's a high-performance race car, man, you just gotta learn to drop"it into gear. That chaos ain't a weakness, it's a gift""This ain't a curse, my friend" he said"This is a paradigm shift""What you have is a superpower, you just gotta learn to aim"

And in that single moment, he completely changed the game

'Cause I ain't a problem, I'm a force you've never known

On a different kind of mission, on a different kind of throne

I ain't a problem, I'm a father, husband, and a friend

And the battle with myself is finally comin' to an end

He taught me how to train it. How to guide it. How not to be afraid

He showed me that the darkness I was buryin' so deep.. was the same place the light was made

Now I see my wife, and I don't just see her.. I feel the love she gives

I see my kids.. and I feel the reason that this broken man still lives

He helps me take the negatives.. and turn 'em into fuel

He didn't fix me. He just showed me I already had the tool

And that's a gift.. I'll spend my whole damn life trying to protect

For them.