Yeah

Do you remember them nights when you and I sat

In that living room? Both of us talking about dad

Tears built up and we both couldn't help but cry

Our eyes out till there's nothing left but a dry soul

Wishing for things to change inside this house

But everytime you tried it came back to hurt you

I was too young to understand the pain and abuse

Your feelings were going through, you were afraid to lose

Me as well as what you saw as a family

But beneath it all was high dosed Ketamine

I couldn't understand them bottles nor what's going on inside your head

You couldn't put it to rest

You saw me as a strong little guy

Fighting and fighting

Through hard nights I kept

Trying and trying

To stay by your side but then came the lightning

It struck you and I saw

It was terrifying

You promised to stay with me till the very end

You never lied to me so I guess this where you began?

To try and hide everything that you had in your hands

Why didn't you tell me about this plan?

If I would've known them pills were filling your head

I would have thrown em out and try to fix your mess

I would've spent more time with you while being your best!

But I guess I was too late, now you put yourself to rest

Never thought that the food on the table would get colder

As I'm sitting there waiting for you to come over

Now I'm the one cooking in the kitchen cold shoulder

The weight of you not being here stays with me as I get older

As I make it to my room, I fall on the floor

The same way I saw you when I walked through that door

You were lying there, motionless, right next to the drawer

And a little bottle in the palm of your hand

I counted four seconds, I was very confused

Counted three seconds, what was I supposed to do?

Two seconds for me to fall into a sad mood

But that last second cut me and left a wound

The cops shown up, who were these people?!

This is our house, you all have to get out!

Mom, why are they telling me to leave now?!

Why can't I ever stay with you by your side!

You promised to stay with me till the very end

You never lied to me so I guess this where you began?

To try and hide everything that you had in your hands

Why didn't you tell me about this plan?

If I would've known them pills were filling your head

I would have thrown em out and try to fix your mess

I would've spent more time with you while being your best!

But I guess I was too late, now you put yourself to rest

Years going by and I'm still wearing sweatshirts

Hoodie over my head as that's how I feel comfort

Still wearing them black shoes but they got some dirt

I know I should clean them but I'm afraid it would hurt

At 19 years old, I became a floor manager

18 years I went and put out a few records

At 17 I ran off hoping to go and explore

A new world, one in which you were looking for

At 15 I was battling what we all call therapy

At 14 I was trying to figure out my own being

13 years and yet nobody is even listening

To a boy who's 12, feeling went missing

You promised to stay with me till the very end

You never lied to me so I guess this where you began?

To try and hide everything that you had in your hands

Why didn't you tell me about this plan?

If I would've known them pills were filling your head

I would have thrown em out and try to fix your mess

I would've spent more time with you while being your best!

But I guess I was too late, now you put yourself to rest

Going down the list, I could list it all

But I'm still dialing your number on my phone

Dialed it multiple times, please answer my call

That voice lady ain't your voice..I'm all alone