Let's calm down, let's not wait

Let's breath in, you're okay

Open your heart, open your mind

Show them more of whats inside

I thought I had a grip, I thought I had it tight

I thought I made it out, I thought I said goodbye

I thought I had it locked, I thought I won the fight

I thought I spilled the truths of all my lies

Recently I been battling just me and myself while pushing other people out

Told myself not to go back to my past cause its on my back but it got too loud

I thought I made the right choice to put on a mask when I heard that they found

Out about who I was and who I am but who I am is different inside this house

Heart is racing and thoughts are spinning as these halls slowly begin to close in now

I realize my strings been cut but I didnt want my strength to fall down

Thats usually what happens to those who stand too high with their own confidence

I can confidently say that this throne of mine has slowly began to break

It's the same old feeling that I've felt before

That whats the point when death knocks on your door

I already know that these pills have failed more

But I refuse to be that one lying on the floor

I'll cross my heart, I'll close my eyes

I'll cross my fear, I'll close that line

I'll close my dreams, I'll cross this time

I'll close my mind, I'll cross my life

Seeking god, asking help

Seeking praise, no one around

My anger builds, I'm crying still

My rage fills, why cant I-

yell

Back then I had little care towards the world

Reason was of all the pain I was hurt

Tears shown weakness, it shown concern

I held them back, held them tight, till I learned

How to hide behind a page of blank filled lines

How to seal myself out so I stayed inside

This house of mine with me, myself, and I

What I didn't know was my life was soon to be jeopardized

Standing back as I watch myself light a match and say

Lay me down and let me rest and let me turn to ashes

Burn my mistakes, burn choices I've made

Have this mind of mine finally decay

Forgive me for my sins, forgive me if I pray

Asking help to me has never been my way

Standing back as I watch myself light a match and say

Lay me down and let me rest and let me turn to ashes

Tell me another way in saying "I'm sorry!"

Tell me another way in making apologies

Tell me another way in taking all the blame I've made dig a hole for me and say your grace while im in that grave

Let their tears fill up the casket as I lay inside holding a gas can while I burn alive

Let my tears evaporate rather than my dreams

Let myself burn to nothingness so I can be free