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SADDERDAZE
Hip-Hop/Rap
SADDERDAZE was released on September 12, 2025 by Self Released as a part of the album METEOR child
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Release DateSeptember 12, 2025
LabelSelf Released
LanguageEnglish
Melodicness
Acousticness
Valence
Danceability
Energy
BPM84

Music Video

Music Video

Credits

PERFORMING ARTISTS
Kriselle Layon
Kriselle Layon
Rap
COMPOSITION & LYRICS
Kriselle Layon
Kriselle Layon
Songwriter
PRODUCTION & ENGINEERING
Kriselle Layon
Kriselle Layon
Executive Producer

Lyrics

"March 11, 2019
Captain Marvel's out, I'm tryna watch with the homies
Sitting alone at Glen Mor, I sent a text to my brother
He hit me back, saying that they just don't want me coming
'Christian, we can talk if you're willing to listen
I'll be honest, I didn't want you around for a minute.'
I replied that I'd love to talk about it
If you had a problem with me, you'd know that I always wanna solve it
'Cause you are the friends I turned to when fam' never felt like family
'Cause you are the friends I turned to when my father acted irrationally
I HATE that man, I hate that he never listens to mother
Laughing in my face for some shit that was never funny
We schedule a time to meet and I walk across my campus
Anxiety in my head, I'm hoping that we can get this gap fixed
I remember back on Saturdays, we stayed at church 'til Gym Night
We played Zombies in the orange groves and the girls talked about life
Back in 2012, it was about DMCs and PF
And hoppin' the church's brick fence for Starbucks and AMPM
Nappin' on the stage, talking anime, crushes, and games
And when things got sad, we had our backs on the sadder days
And when that fateful day came, we met again at our same 'ol place
That's when I noticed that this was an intervention about my ways
'Christian. I feel worse every time I'm around you
Ever since college, our catch-ups' only been about you
You don't wanna listen to our problems, and you know DAMN well I'm struggling
I remember when I was going through my shit that you would listen to me
I was fake to you, I'll admit it. I don't wanna hear your flexes
Do you even care about me Christian?
Please, tell me the truth.'"
But sometimes the truth's not satisfying
Say it all but it's still not enough, so
Study your surroundings because one day
It will all be gone in a blink of an eye
Lose what you love, in a blink of an eye
Fuck it all up, in a blink of an eye
(You are just like your pops)
(You are just like your pops)
(You are just like your pops)
(You are just like your pops)
(You are just like your pops)
(You are just like your pops)
(You are just like your pops)
(You are just like your pops)
February 10, 2022
I recorded that verse in Riverside with Kaido
The years before and after, I chose to spend them alone
Hyperfocused on my goals, it is all that I know
I found myself in a coffee shop, doing work on my laptop
Doomscroll in my Kia, daydreaming of belonging
Go to straight to bed, just wanted the days to move on
But addiction is soothing, it led to insomnia
I found myself going out powered by nostalgia
Getting drunk at the parties, but not making connection
Getting intimate with broken situationships
Doing so much but still feeling like something's missing
I found myself in a constant state of mourning
Tried to reconnect but things were just so different
The friends I had left, only knew just an image
Cause how I was in 2019, (I couldn't forgive)
And how I was in 2016, (I couldn't forgive)
And how I was in 2023, (I couldn't forgive)
I had started hearing parenthesis in everyone's speech
Their subtext helped me in this new eternal loneliness
I did my first tour then got a day job netting 6 figs
But the days got blurrier, as I continued to not be present
Too busy with their work, only to be laid off after two years
Looking back at my camera roll, so many scenes I couldn't remember
I had so many questions that I just couldn't find an answer
Hermenutical gap, where I come from, no one could help me
Seek and one day you shall find, with years of introspection
But as I got deeper, I saw it's beyond comprehension
(Unempathetic attention seeking piece of shit)
(Selfish arrogant dick, never cared to listen)
(Bitch, weird motherfucker go home)
(Fix yourself all you want, you'll never be normal)
Written by: Kriselle Layon
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