Holding back the tears

In the battlefield like, "don't nobody care?"

My brudda got killed I had to soldier that for years

I got shanked since then I had to roll without the fear

My **** switched sides like he don't know I prepared

He tasted the pain when I showed him I was clear

Upset there women stare I know it's not fair couldn't care less fam I was broke picking up the pieces

I was raised in the flames but I praise Jesus

Said division but they didn't wanna dream it

Took bare Ls mate I feel no feelings

Somehow stay paid never been a dope dealer

My **** threw a party in the park and held a meeting

I ain't worried about nuttin' just make sure the girls are eating

My gang's fully governed God's the only one above us

One main rule is don't ever disrespect your brudda

Holding back the tears

Help another brother I've been holding back for years

New bruddas moving like they've known a man for years

Life got cold I had to open up my ears

Older man are folding man I know that man are scared

Suttin' got broke and when I spoke another prayer

Told a man to poke a man the joker never dared

Joker's been trying hard but I don't feel it

A brudda tried to emulate me you couldn't be dis

I could never ever be weak I been the realest

I'll lick your head off your neck clean for no reason

Enemies see me in the flesh and start cheesin'

Everything I've been through has led to my season

Deathdate for everyone for hates I done seen it

Handsome, and I'm supernaturally appealing

Every time I open up my mouth it's straight healing

Holding back the tears

Yeah I'm still a soldier but I'm holding back the tears

**** been focused on my progress like it's theirs

Hearts been broken man I hope somebody hears

What d'you know about holding onto prayers

Fighting with your own mind moaning in your ears

I just go about along without my peers

Everybody says a lot but they don't mean it

Teach a man your future plan and man will start stealing

Leave a man to be a man it's naturally revealing

Don't tell your vision to a man who can't believe that man are sleeping

I hit hard no chance to peep it

You'll get a beatin' mistaking my love for weakness even when I never had it made sure the gang's eating (made sure)

I've been known for that for years

Fully certified holding back the tears