I know youre talking to me but im not here

Your words are walking near me but theyre not clear

been trapped in my mind and its unfair

Living my worst fear

I know youre talking to me but im not here

Your words are walking near me but theyre not clear

been trapped in my mind

Living my worst fear

I know youre always asking, where yo ass been

and im really, really sorry for my absence but lately ive having hard times with unmasking, all my feelings and my thoughts are in fragments

and lately ive been having hard times with relaxing

hyperventalitaing daily, and im stressing about shit i did when everybody knows it was an accident, i just feel as if im livivng in the past tense

I know youre talking to me but im not here

Your words are walking near me but theyre not clear

been trapped in my mind and its unfair

Living my worst fear

I know youre talking to me but im not here

Your words are walking near me but theyre not clear

been trapped in my mind

I put my stance on a canvas

a portrait of myself

im entangled in my mind

i just lack the mental health

to keep craving art entirely

and chase the matter wealth

matter fact i been running

very quietly with stealth

 

i feel im fading away

why did i let me a stray

cause ive been tryna find a better way

to live day by day

and ive been tryna find a medicine

to cure my mistakes

and ive been tryna the gas pedal instead of the brakes

I know youre talking to me but im not here

Your words are walking near me but theyre not clear

been trapped in my mind and its unfair

Living my worst fear

I know youre talking to me but im not here

Your words are walking near me but theyre not clear

been trapped in my mind

Living my worst fear

im not here,

and that doesnt mean i have to be

could be fighting in a war i call that blasphemy/blast for me

but if i do fight and come back will you be next to me, cause i might need someone to hold onto the last of me

but would you last with me

I would do everything that you asked from me

and if id make a lotta money, spend my cash for me

but if id die while trying, hold my ash for me

i mean it everyday

I know youre talking to me but i might be here

just say the words, i will listen everytime we here,

I will stay close to you, just know that ill be near

Ill be close to you, when you dont feel right, ill be the most of you

when youre feeling haunted, just know that ill fight the ghosts for you

a toast to you, for being everything that i was hoping you, were