Ive been staring out my window thinking bout the summer when I was just 16.

I was a sick teen, struggling with big dreams.

Always arguing with momma, we were riddled in our traumas, I ran away in the hopes that she'd miss me.

Always looking for a high, or the next trip.

Always looking for some love from a bad bitch.

Missing validation, looking for confirmation, always in confrontation in toxic relationship.

I missed my brother when he moved cities for a study.

And didnt come home, for months, like he didnt love me.

But once I turned his age, I understood why.

It aint like he aint love me, its that hes missing time.

Thats why I'm grateful for my dad, working 9-5, getting home, hella tired but he always made up time. To help me with my homework but I cant pick my mind on why the good always gotta die first

If nothing's what it seems.

And I don't know what to believe.

Sorry I get distant, and I might listen.

But I feel safe inside my dreams.

If nothing's what it seems.

And I don't know what to believe.

Sorry I get distant, and I might listen.

But I feel safe inside my dreams.

I don't wanna wake up.

Even when I'm falling way too deep.

I don't wanna wake up from this dream.

I don't wanna wake up.

Even when I'm falling way too deep.

I don't wanna wake up from this dream.

Wide awake in my bed, staring at the ceiling thinking why it didn't last.

I just wished we had more time, than we really had.

You were my hero without cape, someone that has kept me safe, while teaching me the ropes on how to be a man.

I broke in pieces on your final day.

I can't believe I wont hear u speak or any of the jokes you make.

And the wisdom that you preached, about finding inner peace, even if I was stubborn, know it made its way.

I hope that you are proud.

Just know that people still talk about you in honor out loud

And I swear sometimes I see your face in the crowd.

And Even if you're gone now, I hope you still float around. Because

I done did so many things you'd be proud of.

And I would die to see the way you would've smiled dad.

I know you'll always be the one who cheers the loudest, but I can't help to feel bitter when I shine dad.

Yeah even after all of these years,

I still got dreams of you coming back, but when I wake up I be shaking in tears, and everyday, I pretend that everything is alright and that you are still here with me.

All the memories we had still feels timeless.

I want to thank you for the years of your guidance.

I keep my head up like you'd want me to.

Your legacy will live inside me till I'm there with you.

(Hmmm)

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(If nothing's what it seems)

(And I don't know what to believe)

(Sorry I get distant, and I might not listen)

(But I feel safe inside my dreams)

If nothing's what it seems.

And I don't know what to believe.

Sorry I get distant, and I might listen.

But I feel safe inside my dreams.

If nothing's what it seems.

And I don't know what to believe.

Sorry I get distant, and I might listen.

But I feel safe inside my dreams.

I don't wanna wake up.

Even when I'm falling way too deep.

I don't wanna wake up from this dream.

I don't wanna wake up.

Even when I'm falling way too deep.

I don't wanna wake up from this...

dream.