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On Instinct
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Adult Alternative
On Instinct was released on December 5, 2025 by Kira Metcalf as a part of the album Lessons in Majestic Humiliation
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Release DateDecember 5, 2025
LabelKira Metcalf
LanguageEnglish
Melodicness
Acousticness
Valence
Danceability
Energy
BPM155

Music Video

Music Video

Credits

PERFORMING ARTISTS
Kira Metcalf
Kira Metcalf
Lead Vocals
Ceridwen McCooey
Ceridwen McCooey
Cello
Zach Kirsimae
Zach Kirsimae
Bass Guitar
Morgan Karabel
Morgan Karabel
Drums
COMPOSITION & LYRICS
Kira Metcalf
Kira Metcalf
Songwriter
PRODUCTION & ENGINEERING
Katie Tavini
Katie Tavini
Mastering Engineer
Oli Deakin
Oli Deakin
Mixing Engineer
Rob Luzier
Rob Luzier
Recording Engineer

Lyrics

How did I let myself get here again
He's getting angry
And I can't seem to twist out of this one
It's only because he can't have what he wants
And I want to give in, give him more than I have to offer
My body betrays me seems to crave the fear
I wish I could fight but I fawn
You know, old habits
I'm a contortionist
Coiled around your fist
Slide my flower down the barrel of your gun
I'm a contortionist coiled around your fist
I can morph myself to diffuse the tension
It's safer To be what you want
He's getting angry
And on instinct
I'm going lifeless
He's getting angry
And i have nothing to offer
He's getting angry I'm begging
This not to be real
So I won't feel it
So I won't feel
I'm a contortionist
Coiled around your fist
Slide my flower down the barrel of your gun
I'm a contortionist coiled around your fist
I can morph myself to diffuse the tension
It's safer To be what you want
I'm afraid of angry men Especially when I love them
I was raised by angry men so I adapted to them
Now I can't hear myself think
Too keenly fixed on their gaze
Steeped in shame of being conditioned
To crave punishment and pain
And I want to be free of the need to be
Desirable, obliging, submissive
And I want to know myself beyond an object for safekeeping
And I hope that one day
My limbs stretch to their limit
My body cracking open with rage
And he sees me
And is afraid
I'm a contortionist but you never noticed
Thinking the world turns for your imposition
I'm a contortionist you made me so good at it
I convinced myself this is what I wanted
Written by: Kira Metcalf
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