I don't give a fuck

I be wishing a hole was in my head sometimes

Like I ain't got nothing to lose like

That's why I don't give a fuck bitch I wish I was already dead

I can't lose nothing I never had

I don't want you walkin' in my life cause this shit hella sad

Memories lay in my head, they should've killed me in that crash

All the knowledge in my brain, why I still think like that?

Suicidal thoughts from pessimism runnin' through my brain

Antisocial cause of pain and I'ma think you'll do the same

I was tryna show her love, I'm in the rain and then she changed

Things like this play with my brain, it's so wild I'm tryna tame it

And I hope, one day the days will be different

But I'm so mad inside this bitch, I just wanna ball like a piston

I got no one to talk to for a genuine listen

Say fam and friends, they all laughed, and this just the beginning

I'm always there to give a hand when I need one it's not given

They show love after disrespect when I reward it with distance

Sometimes I'd rather be alone in this life that I'm living

But when the sun fall and I'm in my bed wish someone was with me

I see a star but I don't know what I'm wishin, I ain't got nothin' on my wish list

Maybe a women to hold me and just come shower me with kisses

Maybe rub on my back while I'm tryna understand my feelings

Everything I ever wanted find a way right on the tightrope

And my thoughts too pessimistic, saying it wouldn't be bad to die slow

Reality be too convincing from all the thoughts I try to fight though

Everything be a process, trying man move with high hopes

Making songs, take the weight off my shoulders, for a minute

And when I get from out this cover, I'll be back to deal with it

They put me on the front line, real soldiers deal with it

I might not be the strongest soldier, I'll in a minute

Fuck that shit come to my senses

Knowing it's my ego wanna die, Cause every time get suicidal I just wanna blow my mind

That's what the problem at, Ally voice inside my head be fightin' back

New remedy, we trying that, ooh

And I can't seem to get no fucks 'bout what they think about the kid

Hey, they could walk up on my life, Aye, I'm who live the life I'm in

But who I talk to 'bout my pain?, Receive some laughs from all my friends

Fuck it, charge it to the game, Talk to the mic, I yap again

Mmm, Biggest enemy been watery eyes, Say I been fighting all the crying

Can you not see that I'm trying? But feel I'm losing out on time

But I been patiently waiting, One thing I lack for sure is patience

Hold up, God told me I'm a star, I met some friends, guess stars align

We come from out the dark, But in the daytime stars don't shine

Day in, day out I get it, This a man who hustle grind

I used to hate the rain, Until I realized it's a sign

It's tryna help me grow and elevate expand my mind

If I fail nine times like Roosevelt, I make a dime

Before I leave, I wipe these tears, Can't let them see me crying

Duality with all this shit, Know, it's a reason Imma shine

It's Mr.500