I shed some tears just thinking about yesteryear. Nostalgia been hitting a little harder every year

I never planned to stick around, but I guess I'm here. Why I made it when Vintage didn't was really never clear

It's weird being on the ball, but still forever whiffing. It's like I'm ahead of the game, but still I'm never winning

At least the wins are far and Few between and never sticking. Meanwhile, a few of those L's made me forever different

Keep wondering how long all this darkness will last. Spent the last few years trying to catch up to my past

And if I die like I think I'm gonna, and it's a wrap, did I spend my last few years doing nothing but trash

Not saying I believe that, it's just something I ask. When I'm awake at night and stuck on this stuff I can't crack

I want to make it right and finally make something that lasts, but I can't take my time because that's just not something I have

I'm grasping at straws, trying to get back to where I was back before the collapse of it all

Yeah, COVID happened, but that wasn't all. Lost my career after 12 fucking years of giving that shit my all

And my relationship was tested to its limit. All that quarantine living really put us through the wringer

We started out the best relationship I've ever been in, and we still trying to get back to that, but maybe shit's just different

Arguments were had, things were said that caused resentment. That changes shit regardless of whether or not you meant it

I'm tired of lessons. When the fuck do you finally know enough the universe stops throwing stuff in your direction

I know that every breath's a blessing, but still feel with every step's a question that I got no fucking answers for except for stressing

Leaning on my friends, but all they suggested solutions are giving me indigestion

Finished my album and I hate it all. Can't go back to the drawing board. Man, the people been waiting for songs

So many health issues plaguing me, dawg. Even if I took the time to fix them, I'm not sure who would pay for it all

Spent my whole life praying for more. If I can't enjoy the ride, I guess it's time that I savor the fall

Know I'm not God's favorite. I guess he can't save us all. Life is what you make it. But what if I don't make it at all