I'm staying over

Asked my ex-boyfriend for closure

Then I killed him in a dream

Didn't know I had that side of me

And then he texts me like 3 years after he hexed me

Like I'm so casually gonna pick up when he rings

Are we all living on the same planet?

I don't think you understand it

I'm not dishing out what I can't take

Cause you already threw the baby out with the water

When I was 17 and everybody told me "I can't sing"

HA HA!

All you girlies peaked in high school, wanna follow me

Now you're all wifed up & married

Living in the Georgia peach

& I'm still the same

But you're 24 years late

Single, I don't mingle

Out in LA trying to get paid

It's not glamorous

But at least I can say you trained me

Swimming with the snakes isn't easy for everybody

If me at 17 could see me right now

She'd sit back and take it easy on the couch

Where's the cameras?

It's a movie, no bow

At 17 I wish I knew what I know now

I know now

Mmm

At 17, 17

Mmm

At 17 mmm

At 17 I wish I knew what I know

I built my body from pieces they wanted from me

Just to find out what they seek

I'll be Kool-Aid if they drink

I write this message so you tell me I'm authentic

Then I hit up pilates

I don't look this way for free (haha)

I'm still a Junior dressed up for Halloween

Don't eat all day & take a drink or 2 or 3 or 8 or 10 or 23

Then I threw up all over my angel wings

I didn't mean to cause a scene, but I thought maybe one day, then I may be seen

Hated high school, but I look back on the memories

Praying for the girl who only wanted to be wanted

Please!

And I'm still the same

Somehow, that makes me feel sane

I don't get to choose

How deeply the wounds informed my pain

It's not glamorous

But at least I can say I worked for this

I'm sorry I dropped you on the way to find my purpose

If me at 17 could see me right now

She'd sit back and take it easy on the couch

Where's the cameras?

It's a movie, no bow

At 17 I wish I knew what I know now

I know now

I know

At 17 I wish I knew what I know now

At 17

I wish I knew

I wish I knew it all at 17

17

I thought I knew it all at 17

But then again, I still don't know a thing

I wish I knew it all at 17

But then again, I know nothing

Mmm

I'll never know a thing

Cause it's not up to me

Never been up to me

Mmm