I'm living with scars and secrets

Had my heart torn into parts of pieces

Even with what I knew about the love game inside my silk garment's reason

But like so, it's a twisted achievement

Cause what if all went well?

Would there still be power in undriven?

Why so demotivated? What has gone missing?

Stabilizing a broken man on a mission

Everything's different

Nothing going as expected but aye that's life

Things going left that I can't make right

Universally voicing where I stand, baby this is XX

They need to hear Z so I can't change mics

Ain't that right?

I had dreams of being up on stage

But it seems at that age was early stages of becoming a slave

Grew into an adolescent, my discovery phase

I saw a different side of me. I wanted a taste

Didn't know how to control it, ended up with a plate

And with that I fed thousands

Never got paid, but when you in the situation you're just glad that you ate

It defined a newer me I wasn't ready to take, but here I am

Being all alone an atmosphere of glowing

Boil down my real emotions into 1 sentence potions

In the name of new material to call myself a poet

Stoic, finding real love right after the perfect moment

Telling the hard truths, I was told it set me free

Check the mirror when I do it, and consider myself heroic

So used to giving, when it came to me I tended to phone it in

But now that it's reversed, it's levels worse than when I noticed

Over half of my nights at 19 I spent in tears

At the top of my game, but why am I not at the top of the game? It's been years

Used to be a nightmare thinking I wouldn't pop, I'm now living in my second biggest fear

Got a sheer amount of faith, still smile through the pain

I remember when I lived my best life and nobody really seen it on my face

Never been the type to rather look it than be it

Ain't an ego when people ask me "Who is the goat?"

I just never really see myself as 2 and below

Decade surviving, now it's 2 in a row

And I still got some members of that crew in the boat

Man it's hard to stay sane when even the little things that I say are unsafe

Catching breaks ain't nothing but an "idk"

In the line of sight of eyes that consider my line of work IDK

Unidentifiable

Went from being understandable to unreliable

Everybody make it difficult to be aside with em

Not everyone transparent, I just see inside of em

More specifically I read between the lines of em

Domino effect, I get to lining em and doubling back to my quarters pronto

I know that nobody finding em, but I gotta protect my words

It's absurd, all this built-up anxiousness and paranoia got me nervous in the burbs

When she the one I tend to overwhelm, it's a costly addiction

The pain in my pocket numb when I feel the friction

Hotel suite for one on top of my wishlist

There's plenty I can want but I'm in need of a distance

Music expensive but it's worth it with the right feelings

The surge of achievement to hit a high ceiling

But stay away from who think it's gonna buy a ceiling

Cause they don't know they don't know they don't know

Still feel blessed to be XX

You would cry with me if you knew the rest

Still too soon to retire my crest

Plenty more dollars and time to invest

Such a strong feeling in my chest

I'm in for something soon I don't even expect

It might be wrong, there's nothing I don't expect

But only time will tell me if I'm correct

So as I navigate this I'm yelling

"I don't want any more stress anymore

Tell me that the best is yet to be explored and the worst is to rest like me with reassured"

As I'm walking with faith I'm telling

"I ain't boutta deal with no stress anymore

If it come knocking, it get left at the door

All 10s on accord, can I get a 10-4?"