Since a kid was a target fast for bad business

Went to piss they beat my ass put their back in it

Want to miss every class full of laugh in it

As they hit with their thumb tacks they would slap with it

Kick you while you down or try to drown you gag in it

Even when we moved ain't got a clue still mad kitchen

Never trained and off alone just a sad witness

Carried pain now on the road filling past wishes

Idea fishing cus I lived my life just as a passer by

Nightmares lost my appetite I always craved and afterlife

Same ones now the losers or abusers giving wack advice

Dead or in a jail I'm glad I never used that gat and knife

But boo hoo why how dare I cry when kids at the tree to die

Or put on trains towards genocids or starved and suffering

And fly when drone and missiles come from sky the trail of tears and nuking lives or fentanyl deaths on the rise

Endless blood through out the lives

Cus I can't understand

All my killer plans

By the pillar stand

I'm shivering

And quivering

At the silver dam

She slithering

With a filler man

With some pills in hand

It's kill or land

Or kill for land

In a silver dam

Same scares jit who now numb and old

Still draw air kicks sit in never whole

Dissociate on vecay summer always cold

Mediating reconnecting brain on drugs and lost my soul

Disappeared, reality became half full of all my fears

Faces blank and empty places memory not ever clear

No oxygen or cot of friends i bounce around with no one near

Years in nap and Turned to black and slept in park let darkness steer

From right to wrong

Only feel a cheer obsessed possessing songs

My Mom said my creative imagination work hard all along

But mixed with my depression and anxiety they dont belong

Its like a metal screech inside your ears at all times echoed gong

The withdraws left me worse before the psych wards locked up all my doors

The pins and needles damaged sore and shattered mind in never sure

And lust desire dug and tore away from center hurt me more and dragged me far away from core im spinning out all on the floor

Cus I can't understand

All my killer plans

By the pillar stand

I'm shivering

And quivering

At the silver dam

She slithering

With a filler man

With some pills in hand

It's kill or land

Or kill for land

In a silver dam