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Trigger Discipline
Metal
Trigger Discipline was released on December 21, 2025 by BreVos Music as a part of the album Storm Within
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Release DateDecember 21, 2025
LabelBreVos Music
LanguageEnglish
Melodicness
Acousticness
Valence
Danceability
Energy
BPM71

Music Video

Music Video

Credits

PERFORMING ARTISTS
Eelko de Vos
Eelko de Vos
Other Instrument
COMPOSITION & LYRICS
Eelko de Vos
Eelko de Vos
Songwriter
PRODUCTION & ENGINEERING
Eelko de Vos
Eelko de Vos
Producer

Lyrics

You slam the door, no malice, just a careless bit of noise
My body hits the ceiling like I've lost all of my poise
You touch my shoulder from behind, your hands are soft and kind
But I'm back inside a nightmare only I can truly find
You joke about abandonment, "bet you'll leave me in a year"
My chest becomes a firing range for every loaded fear
You say, "I'd never hurt you," with a puzzled little laugh
But you can't see the ghosts that rewired all my paths
So when I flinch at kindness, when I question every kiss
It's not you I'm running from; it's the graveyard in my ribs
If you love me, love my triggers, not by walking on your toes
But by learning where the landmines in my nervous system grow
I'm holding on with trigger discipline
Trying not to fire on the ones who let me in
If I freeze or I dissociate when you only meant caress
Know I'm disarming ancient weapons, not rejecting tenderness
You plan a big surprise for me, the candles and the crowd
My lungs collapse in ambush, every voice too sharp and loud
I disappear into the bathroom, slide down shaking to the floor
You think you did something wrong and you don't know what for
But the problem isn't birthday songs, or all the love you showed
It's anniversaries of trauma that my veins still can't unload
If you cancel all your fireworks when I ask for quieter skies
You're not missing out on romance; you're giving me a chance to rise
I'm not made of shattered glass; I'm made of tempered steel
I just learned to brace for impact every time I try to feel
If you sit here through my flashbacks, don't insist that I move on
You'll see that staying through the darkness is how daylight's really won
I'm holding on with trigger discipline
Trying not to fire on the ones who let me in
If I freeze or I dissociate when you only meant caress
Know I'm disarming ancient weapons, not rejecting tenderness
Say my name, count my breaths
Name the colors in the room
Press my feet into the carpet
Guide me back out of the gloom
I am here, I am here, I am here
I will not be what they made
I will not live in their shade
If you love me, take my hand
We'll redraw my battle plan
I'm holding on with trigger discipline
Every tremor is a victory, not a sin
If I tell you where it hurts and you still choose to stay
We'll turn all these haunted reflexes into weapons put away
Written by: Eelko de Vos
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