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NOT HERE
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NOT HERE was released on December 27, 2025 by TmacRecords as a part of the album NOT HERE - Single
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PERFORMING ARTISTS
Tyler McGrath
Tyler McGrath
Vocals
COMPOSITION & LYRICS
Tyler McGrath
Tyler McGrath
Songwriter
PRODUCTION & ENGINEERING
Tyler McGrath
Tyler McGrath
Producer

Lyrics

I'm not tryn'a die
I just I don't wanna be here right now
Oh woah
Woke up this morning did wanna be awake
Not in a dark way, just needed a break
From being inside this head, inside this skin
From the news that won't stop, the thoughts that won't end
I'm not on a ledge, I'm just outta my mind
I'm tired of pretending that I'm doin' fine
I don't wanna hurt myself that's not the point
I just wanna disappear I wanna be a ghost
Not forever, just for now
Need to breathe but don't know how
I don't wanna die
I'm just not here
Somewhere in between
Existing and disappeared
I don't want die
I just need a pause
Tired of being me
Tired of the 'cause
I'm not here (I'm not here)
I'm not here (I'm not here)
Body in the room, but I (ah-ah)
I'm not here (I don't wanna die)
People say it gets better, I believe that it's true
But what about the middle when you're barely getting through
When you're not in crisis but you're not okay
When you're just survivin' every single day
Smile at the cashier, laugh at the joke
Holdin' my breath til I'm ready to choke
I don't need a hotline, I'm not at that place
I just need permission to not show my face
Not forever, just for now
Need to breathe but don't know how, I
I don't wanna die
I'm just not here
Somewhere in between
Existing and disappeared
I don't want die
I just need a pause
Tired of being me
Tired of the 'cause
I'm not here (I'm not here)
I'm not here (I'm not here)
Body in the room, but I (ah-ah)
I'm not here (I don't wanna)
Is there a word for what I feel?
Too tired to fake it, to scared to heal
Not broken enough to ask for help
Just stuck inside a version of myself
That doesn't wanna do this anymore
But doesn't want to walk out the door
Just wants to close my eyes and drift
Somewhere quiet, somewhere safe
Somewhere I don't have to exist
I don't wanna die
I'm just not here
Somewhere in between
Existing and disappeared
I don't want die
I just need a pause
Tired of being me
Tired of the 'cause
I'm not here (I'm not here)
I'm not here (I'm not here)
Body in the room, but I (ah-ah)
I'm not here
Oh, oh, oh
Oh, I'm not here
Oh, oh, oh
Oh, I'm not here
Oh, oh, oh
Oh, I'm not here
I'm still here
I'm still here
Written by: Tyler McGrath

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