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Introspection
Hip-Hop/Rap
Introspection was released on January 17, 2026 by Never Sober Volume as a part of the album Hillside Dr
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Release DateJanuary 17, 2026
LabelNever Sober Volume
LanguageEnglish
Melodicness
Acousticness
Valence
Danceability
Energy
BPM67

Credits

PERFORMING ARTISTS
Jaydem
Jaydem
Rap
COMPOSITION & LYRICS
Lane Wiltbank
Lane Wiltbank
Songwriter
PRODUCTION & ENGINEERING
Jaydem
Jaydem
Engineer

Lyrics

Mirror talkin' back, say, "Boy, you a mess"
Hate what I became but I love my success
Blood in my thoughts, got death on my breath
Tryna outrun me, but I live in my chest
Paranoia got me pacing in the dark
Every memory sharp like a blade to the heart
I don't pray for forgiveness, I just load up my sins
Light a flame, watch it burn through my skin
Wake up sick from the dreams that I had
All these ghosts in my room want my soul real bad
Mama said I'd be great, now I'm great at decay
Smile stitched to my face while my faith rot away
I been numb so long I forgot how to feel
Now I chase that void like it owe me a meal
Past full of pills and the lies that I told
Every bridge that I burned just to stay fuckin' cold
Head full of noise, no peace in the static
Talk to myself like I'm clinically manic
Too many hearts that I treated like gadgets
If I'm honest, I deserve all the damage
Karma got hands and she swingin' relentless
Every bad choice got my name on the ledger
I don't look for love, I just look for an escape
Every high just a lie with a prettier face
Mirror talkin' back, say, "Boy, you a mess"
Hate what I became but I love my success
Blood in my thoughts, got death on my breath
Tryna outrun me, but I live in my chest
Paranoia got me pacing in the dark
Every memory sharp like a blade to the heart
I don't pray for forgiveness, I just load up my sins
Light a flame, watch it burn through my skin
Mirror talkin' back, say, "Boy, you a mess"
Hate what I became but I love my success
Blood in my thoughts, got death on my breath
Tryna outrun me, but I live in my chest
Paranoia got me pacing in the dark
Every memory sharp like a blade to the heart
I don't pray for forgiveness, I just load up my sins
Light a flame, watch it burn through my skin
I been poison in the cup since the jump
Tell the truth in the booth, then I lie in the mud
Tryna fake that I'm healed but I'm rotten inside
Every win feel hollow when your soul got a price
Everybody wanna know why I'm distant
'Cause I seen what love turn into in an instant
I been loved and I destroyed it with resentment
I been trusted and I snapped it like a sentence
Ego on loud but the confidence brittle
I talk big but my spirit feel little
I got skeletons packed in the rental
Every mile that I drive just prolong my potential
I don't beef with the world, I beef with reflection
Every flaw in my face scream "correction"
I don't hate you, I hate the connection
'Cause attachment feel too close to infection
Still feel dirty when the money in my hand
Still feel worthless when they call me the man
Still feel hunted when the plug say "advance"
Still feel doomed every time that I dance with fate
Came up from the mud, the mud is still inside me
Bank full of zeroes, but the mirror still deny me
I don't glamorize pain, I romanticize pressure
Turn collapse into craft, turn regret into texture
All these scars got a sound when they open at night
Every cut tell a story I don't wanna write
I ain't proud of the dirt I been draggin' behind me
But the past like a chain and it clank when it find me
If I die tonight, I won't fake being shocked
Been flirtin' with death since the clock learned to talk
I don't chase being saved, I just wait to be caught
By the void or the voice in the back of my thoughts
Mirror talkin' back, say, "Boy, you a mess"
Hate what I became but I love my success
Blood in my thoughts, got death on my breath
A rich man cryin' with a broke man's stress
Paranoia got me pacing in the dark
Every memory sharp like a blade to the heart
I don't pray for forgiveness, I just load up my sins
Light a flame, watch it burn through my skin
Written by: Lane Wiltbank
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