They reject me, I bounce back Still I pray no need for plaques Turned twenty-five in the masjid Truth in me, and that's intact I ride out for my kin Even when the love feels thin But the poison grows within Ain't just trauma, it's a sin Faith is built on gratitude But you shame, then call it truth Dropped her veil you told her to Now she's gone and blaming you Say you're righteous, play the knight Now he's chasing wrong from right Pushed that brother from the light Now he's ghostin' through the night Yeah, I'm layered, I'm a maze And they watch me like I'm strange Every day i look for change Still they box me in with shame Trained my brain to fear their gaze, When God gifted me this way To speak my truth and make a change Light a fuse contain the flame And they've stuck on label tags Who's the good sister from bad The 6th pillar of islam Is being miserable and sad Now the west destabilize Now we can't reach for the skies From all that smoke and all the lies Sipping coffee paralysed I just wanna feel connection But instead im feelin paralysed God protect me from rejection Cant afford to feel so paralysed I'm paralysed I'm paralysed Reading comments hypnotised I blink twice They hate to watch me thrive Like im the sign of the times They say I wont reach paradise Like im a paradigm And you're a bunch of parasites Got me doom scrolling can't reach the end All my friends saying This life we live is just a test The money you making aint even blessed Just give it a rest And here I am stressed cuz this shit wont even pay my rent Still I post Im stitching jokes Your defence mechanism chokes Made them laugh Made them woke The need for criticism shows The evil in a villain grows The people need a little hope I Made them laugh I Made them woke Until that needle didn't poke It's all my fault I should've known People talk and that's the motion Guess I need a shift in focus Only god knows I'm devoted But my sins are being publicised In the public eye I just wanna feel connection But instead im feelin paralysed I couldnt wait to be great I was hungry I was ruthless I had labels ready to do this But i spit them out like mucus