I don’t wanna be cruel

But it’s hard to be kind

When there’s a voice I can hear That tries to pull me behind

Every word that she says Creates a bigger divide It’s getting hard to pretend When she cuts like a knife

I always want what I can’t have

I ask for white but then I paint it black I’m stuck between

my heart and my head

Been tryna suppress it but

I can’t deny there is

Two sides of me

I can’t describe One is a match Ones dynamite Ones too defensive One attacks

One take a hit

One throws it back

One gives it all

The other takes

Until the glass

half empty breaks

Got to the point of giving up

Cause there’s no holding back the flood

It’s so hard to be sweet

When she puts salt in the cuts I’m tryna keep my mouth shut But she keeps spilling my guts

I feel so incomplete

But when she kicks up a fuss I feel a weird kinda rush

Like I’ve been hit by a bus

I always want what I can’t have

I ask for white but then I paint it black I’m stuck between

my heart and my head

Been tryna suppress it but

I can’t deny there is

Two sides of me

I can’t describe One is a match Ones dynamite Ones too defensive One attacks

One take a hit

One throws it back

There's not holding it back now No holding it back

There's not holding it back now No holding it back

There's not holding it back now, No holding it back now,

No holding it back now,

No holding it back

There's not holding it back now No holding it back

There's not holding it back now No holding it back

There's not holding it back now, No holding it back now,

No holding it back