I'm sorry momma this last time you hear from me

I am not this happy person I appear to be

This the only way

I'll be free from the hurt and all of the curses I'm burning and hurting but nobody care

All of my burdens they're holding me down

Closing the curtains, I'm certain that I'll be destined to drown (destined to drown)

I'ma kill myself

Sick and tired of always taking all these motherfucking pills so ion feel myself

Tell me why the fuck these people took advantage of me

Ain't nobody know the pressure and the baggage on me

I remember tears shed, blood-red wait

By the time you reading this, I'm dead wait

All my life, I'm feeling like I'm dead weight friends fake

I been suicidal ever since I was eight

That's the reason I be talking to the devil

And he told me when I die that he gon' meet me at the front gate

Happiness is just a fantasy that I been tryna chase

But I been raped and all the scars on my body remain

Not to mention the fact that I never had nobody by my side

So please don't question me about my fucking pain

Nothing that I'm writing even matters anymore

Momma, all the shit I did won't happen anymore

In a couple minutes I'll be dead

Fuck a gun up to my head I wanna use a knife so I could see the red

I'll suicide, yeah

Momma told me I could be whatever that I wanna be but I'ma suicide, yeah

The devil told me that he miserable he need some company, so I'ma suicide, yeah

Ain't nobody understand the shit that I been going through, so I'ma suicide, yeah

Don't judge me for the things I did