Hey Mama, I'm writing again, though the ink is starting to blur

'Cause life down here is taking every hope that I had for sure

First: forgive me, another year since I stood by your stone

Not 'cause I forgot, but I lacked the strength to face it alone

Twenty-five was madness, new job, just pressure and stress

And then there was this woman, someone who made me forget the rest

I really thought I found her, the one for the road, the rest

But it was just an illusion, another fucking test

New year - the cold is crawling through every seam You're gone, like you waited for this day to end the dream Tearing the page off the calendar, back to zero again War in my head, trying to find the guilt and the pain

I know I did everything right, no, it's not on me

You lost the diamond, stay with your cold, finally see

Mama, I feel your pride, it's burning like fire inside

I didn't lose myself, even if I lose her tonight

Windows are nailed shut, the world outside is dead

Just me, this letter, and a flickering light

Instead The asphalt under my feet will soon feel steady and true

Starting over again, even if my lungs are turning blue

I'm standing stable, staying straight, focus in my sight

Everything I need, Mama, you gave me to win the fight

And I'm coming this year, back to your grave, back to the start

To tell you everything I've been keeping deep in my heart