I was a boat

I had my anchors

I carried your cargo

And I got lost

I got lost to the sea

I wish I could say that I only feel love for you but that's simply not true

Despite knowing and accepting your flaws and the factors that lead up to your undoing, I still persecute you in anger and the purest form of sadness

You found me at my lowest when I was lost at sea

From that point on I relied on you as my only company

I trusted you and you never betrayed me, only yourself

Every day and every waking and dreaming moment of my life, I grieve you, I think of you, I love you, I hate you, I don't know

I just wish that you understood that the decision to leave was not yours to make, it was the decision of everyone else who loved you

I don't have the chance to move on

One day you're there, then you're not

Don't you dare give me a chance

We'll both end up hurt in this dance

So go ahead pack up your bags

Though you can't promise you'll make it back

You know that I wish it ain't true

But we both know the problem was you