Look

The nights been colder, isolation been my company

Lookin' to my shorty just to cope but she can't comfort me

I hope I get my shit together by like 23 Otherwise it's feelin' like it's done for me

I pray this life gets fun for me

I pray that shorty knows that she's the one for me

They sharin' love out on a plate but they

Left none for me

Paranoid lately, it feel like everybody gun for me

I learned to tolerate the pain if it makes funds for me

It feel like shorty wants a ton for me, I'm overthinking

It feel like I'm only myself when I resort

To drinkin

Life been buryin' me in the sand, I got so

Used to sinkin

It feel like my morale is shrinkin

I got so used to hurtin' me

The things I do to cope don't work for me

My mother told me look to God can't find the church in me

Haunted by the memories of hurtin' you, the negative, it lurk in me

It's hard to find a way to get away from all the dirt in me

I'm searchin' for a way to break the curse in me

I lull my soul to sleep with rhymes, it's like a nursery

They judge me off a glance, it's cursory

I can't defeat these demons, lately I feel

Like it's everybody versus me

Askin' what I've done to live like this

I couldn't find nobody round who'd wanna live like Cris

My brother told me that I live like shit

My diet on and down was viral like my life

No wonder I've been pissed

Feel like all my aspirations just miss

Pops had told me, son, you gotta clear your plate before you wash that dish

For an escape, the only thing I wish, but I could never find

Only a matter of time

Had to place my faith in up above

I'm scared to fall in love

It's like a cycle, now I'm back, this shit my favorite drug

I seen the outcome of this shit, but it still

Make me feel good

That's why I let this shit go on, don't get me misunderstood

I'm not a masochist

I hate the pain, I hate inflicting it like pacifists

I drown my sorrows in the bottle

Feel like Lucki when I'm hurting, **** pass the tris

Just know I'm probably coming back to this