Intro:

Like,

I’m probably in the most difficult place in my life because

No I’m not like, the old version of me and who I used to be you feel me?

But I’m also not, who I need to be

I feel like the highest version of me is so far out of reach

And I just don’t know how to grab her

I feel like I’m fighting with myself

To be myself and its

It’s just crazy

Verse

I’m not quite who I was

But I am who I am

Yea I’m Still arriving

The higher version of myself

Feels like she still in hiding

Cause There’s a part of who I am that’s not always surviving and striving to prove that I’m worthy of being invited

To a table that’s not built for me

She rather eat alone if it means protecting her energy

Yea That’s the higher me

Im somewhere in between

It’s like I’m not quite who I used to be

Not quite who I need to be

Myself is playing tug of war

Cause who i am today

Fight through all the toughest wars

You learn to wipe your tears when life responds with “what you crying for”

Got it out the mud so I could shine more

Cause The person who I am is the person that can survive war

Had to be what people wanted

So I could feel safe

Yea I know there’s a version of me that I erased

And now she’s sketching herself back

Fight for her place

This is what she says

Hook

I have never left you

All that Other shit got in the way

You had to protect you

So that I could take my place

Pull away away away

Life is hard when there is change

Pull away away away

But still I play

Tug a war with my soul

Yea ouuu ouuu ouuu

Tug a war with my soul

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Tug a war with my soul

Yea ouuu ouuu ouuu

Tug a war with my soul

Yea ouuu ouuu ouuu