Grief - 09XXI: Song Lyrics, Music Videos & Concerts

Grief

Hip-Hop/Rap

Grief was released on March 13, 2026 by SPTMBR XXI as a part of the album REALMS OF REALITY: A Deconstruction Story

Song Details

AlbumREALMS OF REALITY: A Deconstruction Story

Release DateMarch 13, 2026

LabelSPTMBR XXI

LanguageEnglish

Melodicness

Acousticness

Valence

Danceability

Energy

BPM84

OVERVIEW

LYRICS

Credits

PERFORMING ARTISTS

09XXI

Rap

COMPOSITION & LYRICS

Dean Hart

Songwriter

PRODUCTION & ENGINEERING

09XXI

Producer

Dray Paisley

Mixing Engineer

Angelo Imani

Producer

Lyrics

This confusion that goes on in my head

Disillusioned by the lies that you said

Leaving is never easy but you know that I gotta heal

Grieving a distorted version of you that was never real

Grief, grief, grief, I'm grieving oh

Grief, grief, grief, I'm leaving now

Grief, grief, grief, I'm grieving oh

Grief, grief, grief, I'm leaving now

(Chuh, aye aye aye, yeah, aye aye aye, uh)

The next phase of my deconstruction

Embracing the reaper coming

Darkness behind the curtain differs from what you see in public

Started to question what love is and what it isnt

I was taught it was the son of man risen

From a young age family thought they showed love when they didnt

Every example of love came with conditions

Pops said I had value and never forget

But it came and went

With how many goals I was putting in net

Pre-req of success

The head of the nest wishing for better but if we vent

In record timing you'd go on the defense

Becoming a problem for how we point out a problem is wicked

You were more concerned about the family image

A verse about BLM you said was a topic not to be covered

Said it wasn't good for numbers

Support conditioned, on turning art to a business

And getting discovered

That day you had really showed your true colours

Now on to my mother

She said loved me I used to believe it

Truthfully she was the source of some of my biggest demons

Thankful for all that she did for me

But transactional love is not my currency, and currently

Thinking back to emotional blackmail to get your wishes

Created an emotional black male who hates asking for assistance

In my life that's the fastest way to be guilted

Holding favors over my head I rather have stitches

Seems to me it was manipulation

Your way of having control over every situation

Constant pressure for marriage or kids or whatever you wanted

But you never consulted how I would feel

Now that house I used to call a home is as good as haunted

Sister said she love me but she was my first hater

Heard my first raps told me to just write instead for paper

Instantly shot down belief in my voice

Unsolicited advice was your constant choice

I'll never forget when you heard my first EP

Congratulated me on the release and complimented me on IG

But I heard you talk behind my back

To my thank you for your comment

You thought you deserved more than that

I was in the next room thinking wait

Thank you was less than you deserve?

How did she make my release about her?

Made me change my name to something more anonymous

If it meant you never found me at least I'd be autonomous

Even told bro to never pursue his dreams

Aiming to kill his self esteem

Now he inspires millions while you just hate behind the scenes

The first sign of wanting to control lives

Next sign wanting to control wives

And exactly who they should be

Needing to oversee family tree

Love conditioned on me giving you your ideal sister in law

Seeing me as side character in your story so I just had to withdraw

But all in all

See the shortcomings but I don't fully blame y'all

Lately I been blaming God

Your blue print knew the end from the very beginning

And still put that tree in the garden

Knowing it would end up with sinning

Where's the love in that

Destined us for failure where's the trust in that

Seeing his kids suffer while saying he coming back

On the road to peace

It be your own people and belief

Playing defensive line while I'm playing the running back

Now let's run it back

Innocent babies suffering cuz of Adam and Eve

How can they not matter to you if they matter to me

Accepting your existence but question morality

This messed up world the way that it had to be?

The man upstairs that claims to love us equal

Down here endorsed by the most evil

Who hear bombs burst in air, then pray they lethal

Cultural genocide of groups of people

Maga would see Jesus as an illegal

Said he love us but if we don't bow a knee

Destination is fire for all of eternity

Worship me or burn is a hell of a statement

Seen hella people on their knees speaking in tongues out of fear

But I know that they faking

And if that is the love example my family was given

Maybe one day I'll get to forgiving

Maybe one day we can love without the conditions

Until then I keep my distance and since you all listen

Tell my nephew I miss him

This confusion that goes on in my head

Disillusioned by the lies that you said

Leaving is never easy but you know that I gotta heal

Grieving a distorted version of you that was never real

Grief, grief, grief, I'm grieving oh

Grief, grief, grief, I'm leaving now

Grief, grief, grief, I'm grieving oh

Grief, grief, grief, I'm leaving now

Written by: Dean Hart

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