Ispiliyon

I finally took the time to speak about it

Oskido told me it's best I don't speak about it

But I had to speak about it cause I'm tired

And I didn't want these **** thinking Maraza's only quiet

'Cause he can't be about it

Bitch, I've been about it

And I've seen you doubt it

And I've seen you telling faves in the streets about me

And I've seen some obscene beings sell me sick dreams

Since a teen I had six things running through my mind

And that's poverty, family, love and legacy, money and loyalty

I used to think the money part would help me solve the other five

I never thought that being broke was actually keeping me alive

'Cause see the money really does change a lot of things

She goes from way above your league to your wedding ring

Bitches goes from what's your first name to sharing your last name

To claiming they had a crush on you before the damn fame

Go ahead, hoe, yeah, go ahead hoe

Yeah, play that game, bitch, you know where your head go

**** with a lot of pride move away and hate you

And **** with the weakest spine move closer and embrace you

Saying that they got your back like they palms and filled with malice

Saying that they'll hold you down like their arms gonna give you balance

Saying that they got your back like they don't wanna stab it

Like if they find a chance in your hands they won't wanna grab it

You look in my eyes and say my enemy is your enemy

And if they poison me you got the remedy

I said I'll hold you down and I stayed true to my oath

I tried to keep you afloat but you threw me overboard and then you blamed it all on growth

I mean like what the fuck is loyalty now

It seems to me it's all linked to my royalties now

When I was broke I knew exactly where your loyalty lies

But when my royalties rise is when your loyalty dies

I shared my fame, shared my pay, shared my stage with you

I shared my everything, I shared my wedding day with you

I shared my wildest dreams even shared the burdens of your nightmares

Forget the chains, bro, forget those fly nik Nike airs, I shared my soul

I shared my soul

I told the stories no other soul has been told

See **** wish you well but take your coins out the well

So it's no coincidence loyalty starts with an L

I know a lot of **** wish they killed me where they left me

My other **** wishes his label would let them help me or at least that's what I think

'Cause in spite of all this signs

I refused to believe that my brother would desert me

Yeah, but am not new to a knife wound

I know you backstabbers wish Emtee and I would fight soon

We used to kill tracks, yeah, we used to kill tracks

But I don't need a feature to know him and I are still fam

Speaking of family, my family is a mess

My mother is always stressed, there's some things we can't address

Everybody's got a opinions 'bout how she should have raised us

They say I lost my father so my momma could gain bucks

I lost my father way before I lost a tooth

They blamed my mother and I don't know if I want to know the truth

See I make sure my momma never goes to bed hungry

But sometimes I'm the reason that she goes to bed angry

So, I don't know if am the man my father wanted me to be

But I know the life we live ain't what he wanted me to see

I wanna know if you're at peace but there's no way for me to ask

I'm in charge of your legacy, I doubt if am up for the task

But I know you love me though you never get to say it

I owe you my life I pray to God I get to prove

You left me as a kid and I'm a grown man now

But I spent my whole life tryna make a dead man proud

You dig my ****, that's how I speak now, Dad

I buy expensive swag, look at all the jeans I sag

When you left your wife couldn't afford the maize meal sack

But now your son can buy her lobster for her birthday snack

Yeah, but of course I can't look back

I got my own family now and I can't lose track

See I remember when we had to cook the weeds from the back

Now the poverty is like my dad, is the thing of the past

Now my future is looking brighter and they hate it

l was building my legacy while they debated my greatness

Some of my brothers spreading lies about me, but the truth will soon meets light

Coz I don't grind to prove you wrong, I grind to prove me right

And that's what's taking me further, making my path even clearer

You always looking at others, I only look in the mirror

I've got the soul of a fighter and the hands of a killer

The heart of a lion and the lips of a healer

Hmm, my throne is real, bitch, I'm loyal now

I got some bones that are real and they loyal now

See they resisted jealousy feremone kiss

That's why everyone in my team knows what a fair amount is, yabona

Here we let them talk and they talking funny

But miss me with the talk if that talk ain't money

Bheka, I probably passed what you call a flame

So many bands my wallet look like a rock 'n' roll hall of fame

I know they go call my name

They can't all walk in my lane

But at least we all know the truth

The little things you say about me say a lot about you

Raza