So Into You

i always thought by this age i’d have a wife and a kid

but this life that I live dog i don’t like it a bit

atleast im honest with it leave and they won’t see me for weeks

the woman i would die for we don’t even speak

spark bleazy just to get some sleep

it’s yeezys on my feet

my teedy across from me

my brothers hands out when they see me but they never crossing me

it’s hard for me

back rubs by a member she comfort me

cook for me and rub my feet

lwish it was you doing this for me

im serious

i done broke it off with plenty women cause my heart wasn’t ready

back and forth to therapy cause my thoughts got scary

hate i ain’t make it to see my dog rj marry

want that for me but ion think that’s inna cards i carry

love is something i just never got right in my life

it’s like every girl after me just find the love of the life

they get married or have a kid for them i’m happy as hell

but i wanna experience that for myself and idk if i will

cause i would rather lose you before i lose who i was

i stand on business everytime even if that mean losing love

i wanna win atleast once cause i been losing too much

no one was there just for my heart when they was using me up

i think i stoped trusting women when i was sixteen

And then i got naive again and that caused me to miss things

caused me to misread situations

skated out without a baby

i thank God for this munyun

but this munyun couldn’t save me

getting buns inna mercedes

flew the yams in out from vegas

everywhere i stand i got a baby

from california to miami

i can afford you so i claim you

if i adore you imma range you

 i put diamonds on her ankle

when i cum she tell me thank you

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christian did a number on me if i’m being honest

and im still shaking back but hurting women inna process

it ain’t on purpose most hurt never is

my cup half filled with sedatives

say they love me hardly ever see it

and i won’t lie like i won’t don’t ever need it

i do

lm Only Human like my first mixtape

wish i could go back to that feeling before the hurt took me

before the world got a hold

before i was drowning in hoes

when i believed loved was enough

when my choices ain’t mean that much

when my vision wasn’t as clouded

before the money had piled up

when i heard my grandpa died i felt love leave my body

yk my lungs need exotic

i wish this girl had a hobby

instead of driving me crazy

our text back and forth like tennis

bitch i know you feel the tension

bitch gon make me catch a anyerysm

but she was bad i had to get her

my heart in a bad condition

hold on

let me catch myself

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blinded by the real that i seen in you

these songs are my interviews

these songs give you a peak inside my heart like a ECG

you was so focused on if i was seeing you you wasn’t seeing me

i felt this way for a while and now i finally see why

wear my emotions on my face i couldn’t hide if i tried

buncha girls said they loved me and i laugh like a kawhi

i couldn’t even say it back it’s like why would i lie im still into you and i fucking hate that