Kept it inside me until I felt like I was so sick

Used to be selfish till I seen all my money go quick

I was rebellious in my depression I was posted

God sent me help, but them were the people that I ghosted

I've been so quiet that they won't even see me posting

Feel like I'm dying I been relying on my own strength

I'm testifying I was at flying I was coasting

Trying to get higher Just left me dry in my emotions.

Yeah, yeah it left me so dry

I would drink so much that I'd be praying that I don't die

Did this for so long my brothers thought that I just don't mind

They were trying to show me how to see but I had closed eyes

Searching for some treasure, left me deep, but ain't no gold mine

I told the pastor I was tryna meet, but then I don't slide

The reason I ain't even feeling free cuz I'm on both sides

I'm double minded trying to be in sync with all these soul ties

But You can help me change

You can make me someone different than before I came

Jesus, you can take this trauma that I turned into addiction on the come up I was only trying to fix it but my distance left it all the same

Kept it inside me until I felt like I was so sick

Used to be selfish till I seen all my money go quick

I was rebellious in my depression I was posted

God sent me help, but them were the people that I ghosted

I've been so quiet that they won't even see me posting

Feel like I'm dying I been relying on my own strength

I'm testifying I was at flying I was coasting

Trying to get higher Just left me dry in my emotions.

Yeah, yeah I was drained and I was dry

Felt like I was fake from all the pain that I would hide

Wasn't feeling safe enough to call up on the guys

So I'm falling on my face inside a closet Up to God

I thank God that He met me when He did

His timing is perfection never left me at the end

The Devil used deception as a weapon on the kid

But Jesus is my weapon to protect me from the sin

But this don't mean I'm free from my desire

I'm living in the flesh and know my heart is still a liar

I maybe feel unworthy, but I am worthy through Messiah

And the Holy Spirit's constantly cleaning, and purifying me

Kept it inside me until I felt like I was so sick

Used to be selfish till I seen all my money go quick

I was rebellious in my depression I was posted

God sent me help, but them were the people that I ghosted

I've been so quiet that they won't even see me posting

Feel like I'm dying I been relying on my own strength

I'm testifying I was at flying I was coasting

Trying to get higher Just left me dry in my emotions