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Before/After
Metal
Before/After was released on April 11, 2026 by 10227775 Records DK as a part of the album Close Enough
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Release DateApril 11, 2026
Label10227775 Records DK
LanguageEnglish
Melodicness
Acousticness
Valence
Danceability
Energy
BPM139

Credits

PERFORMING ARTISTS
Ricky Chavez
Ricky Chavez
Other Instrument
COMPOSITION & LYRICS
Ricky Chavez
Ricky Chavez
Songwriter
PRODUCTION & ENGINEERING
Ricky Chavez
Ricky Chavez
Producer

Lyrics

You said it like it meant something
I believed you
I always do
You look at me the same
But something doesn't land—
Like you're standing right in front of me
With someone else in your hands
Every word comes out too careful
Like you practiced this before—
Like you knew exactly how
To walk me to the door
And I let it happen slowly
Like I didn't see the shift—
Like if I ignored the fracture
I could hold onto the myth
I don't stop you—
I just watch it happen
Like I'm not already gone
So I play along
Like I don't see through—
Every lie you hand to me
I take like it's the truth
You think I'm still inside it
You think I don't notice—
I'm just waiting for the moment
You can't control it
When the silence says it louder
Than you ever could
You leave your phone face down
Like that means I won't ask—
You move a little different
Like you're hiding something back
I hear it in your silence
I see it in your face—
You're already somewhere else
I'm just filling in the space
I trace the way you say my name
Like it's losing what it meant—
Like I'm something you still say
But you don't represent
Say it's nothing—
Say it again
Tell me I'm crazy—
Like this is all in my head
Say I'm reaching—
Say I'm wrong
Say it long enough
I'll play along
So I play along
Like I don't see through—
Every lie you hand to me
I take like it's the truth
You think I'm still inside it
You think I don't notice—
I'm just waiting for the moment
You finally lose control of it
When the cracks you tried to hide
Finally start to show
WHY YOU HIDING IT?
Say my name like it's clean!
WHY YOU LYING TO ME?
Like I don't know what you mean!
I SEE THE SHIFT!
I FEEL THE CHANGE!
YOU GAVE IT UP—
AND SAID NOTHING!
I KEPT YOU SAFE!
YOU KEPT YOUR DISTANCE!
I HELD THE LINE—
YOU LOST YOUR VISION!
I WAS RIGHT HERE—
YOU LOOKED AWAY!
AND CALLED IT LOVE
WHILE YOU BETRAYED!
You said it li-
You said it li-
NOTHING, NOTHING, NOTHING
...you could've just told me
I would've listened
Now everything is quiet
But it's louder than before—
Every word we never said
Is sitting on the floor
I thought it would feel different
When it finally broke apart
But there's nothing left to hold onto
Just space where you were
And I sit inside the silence
Like it's something I deserved—
Like the absence of your voice
Is the loudest thing I've heard
No anger—
Just distance
No closure—
Just this
No reason—
No meaning—
Just the weight
Of what didn't exist
I don't play along anymore
I don't need to pretend—
There's nothing left between us
That I have to defend
You don't have to explain it
I don't need to know—
You already let me go
Before you let me go
And I felt it breaking slowly
Long before you let it show
I still hear your voice sometimes
Like it's stuck in the walls—
But it fades a little faster
Every time it calls
You were never really here
I just wanted you to stay—
But I see it clearer now
You were always walking away
I was building something real
Out of something incomplete—
Trying to find a heartbeat
In something that won't beat
We didn't end—
We just stopped trying
We didn't break—
We just stopped lying
We didn't lose—
We just let go
I don't play along anymore
I don't need the truth—
I lived inside your silence
I survived without you
There's nothing left to break now
Nothing left to prove—
You took what you wanted
And I learned how to lose
I let it fall around me
I let it all come through—
There's nothing left to carry
There's nothing left of you
You said it like it meant something
I believed you
...I just wish it did
I just wish it did
I just wish it did
I always do
Written by: Ricky Chavez
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