You ever watch yourself get angry

and just let the red light stay red

Saw your name tagged under his post

Felt my chest lock didn't scroll didn't ghost

Thumb froze over don't care like a prayer I never meant

Funny how jealousy still smells like the scent of your skin

You look happy

God that's the blade

Smile brighter than the nights I kept you safe

No cracks in the glass no visible scars on display

But I still see the version of you that I broke anyway

I told myself you were porcelain paper thin

Now you shine different standing next to him

He ain't loud He ain't me

But he got the soft girl I swore you could only be with me

And I hate that it fits too perfectly

I don't yell

I don't throw

I just let the red light burn slow

There's a red light in my chest

Burning quiet won't let me rest

I don't swing but I don't forgive

I replay every I love you like a curse I still live

Call it calm

Call it cool

All I know

I don't lose I just stay red for you

I drove past the spot where we first got high

Parked in the dark engine sighed like it knew why

Didn't knock Didn't text Just sat there killing time

Imagining how I'd tell you I turned your goodbye into mine

You don't know how far this hunger dragged me

Built a throne out of every tear you never saw me cry

Turned every you'll never make it into gasoline

Now I'm the flame you're scared you'll never outrun, queen

But you look at him like you used to look at me

Before the ambition got teeth and the love got ugly

Something in me still wants to prove

That you misjudged who was really gonna lose

I don't need violence

I just need you to see

What you actually threw away

When you walked out on me

There's a red light in my chest

Not exploding just obsessed

I don't rage I don't shout

I just wait till the whole world finds out

Call it wrath

Call it flame

All I know

You'll whisper my name in the dark when he can't

I don't want you back

I want the memory to choke you

I don't want your love

I want the regret to own you

Long enough

that one day you look for me

and the red light's still on

Red light won't turn green

Even when the whole street looks clean

I don't crash I don't bleed

I just become everything you were scared I'd be

Call it anger

Call it sin

All I know

I don't forgive and neither will you in the end

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