(Yeah)

(Yeah)

I don't wanna tell you how I feel 'cause every time that I do it just hurts me

It hurts you to see me in pain

Know I ain't the best and I know I should be better

You put me to bed I woke up and wrote a suicide letter

You think it's your fault when it is my own

I ain't the best son and you gave me a home (yeah)

Crying at night 'cause I chose to be alone

I say that I hate it when I chose this road

You gave me your love and I threw it away

Wanna feel something the pain stays the same

But maybe the pain is what's real and the joy is what's fake

Embracing the sadness guess it's what I take (yeah)

Take it away, take all of the fame

Take it away 'cause I got it off pain

Stare at myself and I stand in the rain

Wanna go back, kill the thoughts in my brain

Wish I spent more time doing puzzles with mom

And spend more time playing catch with my pop

Instead of chasing this dream, instead of chasing a ball

Now look where it got me, I really got it all

Except for some memories with all of my family

And I'm stuck in the past hoping maybe I'll change things

But I ain't changed nothing, still got no memories

Still chasing a fantasy that I see crumbling

Still chasing a dream that I know is ending

I ain't never gon' wake up though, yeah

I ain't never gon' wake up though, uh

(I ain't never gon' wake up though, I ain't never)

(Yeah)

(I ain't never gon' wake up though, yeah)

(I ain't never gon' wake up though, yeah)

(Wake up)