Cycles Of You

In the morning, as I make my way down the sidewalk I pass your doorstep on my way to a world with no pain Do I see you as you smile at me through your window In shades of blue, I turn away 'cause it's all in my mind It's a world that I created On the day that you moved on All my suffering has been traded For the lie that you're not gone Things are always what they seem But my whole world, just a dream Just a dream Just a dream Why not tell me As you act if I should see you Am I losing? Or do I even have something to lose? But you know me, I am someone who doesn't like changing And I'm sorry, I don't think I could change anyway People ask me what I'm doing And I know it's not sincere Watching my life turn to ruin Just pretending you're still here Am I slowly going blind? My eyes are open, I can't see I can't see I can't see In the evening, as I'm gazing at all of the rooftops I start walking across all of them to get to you And it haunts me, 'cause I know that you're out there somewhere I call your name, but it doesn't make a difference now In my hand I held a diamond And I tossed up and down Didn't pay it much attention Till' it fell right through the ground Who did I think I was fooling It was merely only me Only me Only me