So What?

Yeah This for all my people that grew up being told That they would be dead or in the Penitentiary by the time they were grown And then you wonder why They got depression, self-esteem, anxiety issues You know After so long, you start to believe it Check, check I recall everything I was told Boy, you'll never live to be 18 years old Dead or incarcerated, just like those People who wander down similar roads Leavin' out the house, she said please don't go Granny, why you stay tryin' to, save my soul If death is my destiny, like you had said to me Let me get busy before it gets the best of me Don't you know, bullets don't have no brain And a lot of younguns don't have no aim Am I livin' or dyin', somebody please explain Goin' or stayin', because I'm going insane I'm strapped up cause he is, sheisty cause she is Meanwhile, dude who teach chemistry is In his office with a kid, doin' shit I get expelled for Which makes me wonder why people go to jail for it Even if I did die young, so what Nobody expected me to ever grow up Grandmama lectured me, you better grow up But there wasn't no tellin' me, I was a grown up Even if I did die young, so what Nobody expected me to ever grow up Grandmama lectured me, you better grow up But there wasn't no tellin' me, I was a grown up I'm a kid peepin' injustice y'all let slide But you're so quick to, point out mine That's what made me draw that line Blinded by my own desire, I'm doin' fine No, I'm not, I'm doin' bad, but I'm too afraid to talk Y'all got shit goin' on, I don't wanna bother y'all Pops cut from a different cloth, never be the man he was Thought I was slow, I turned out to be a genius And I ain't returned like, eat my peanuts Let our bank statements be the difference between us If I seem distant, bitch I'm 30 somethin' I was suppose to been done been a murder victim My grandpa prayed 'till his knees gave way If you can't save me, God, please save Jason The way I went in, that's the only explanation I know some bad dudes enough to know I ain't one Even if I did die young, so what Nobody expected me to ever grow up Grandmama lectured me, you better grow up But there wasn't no tellin' me, I was a grown up Even if I did die young, so what Nobody expected me to ever grow up Grandmama lectured me, you better grow up But there wasn't no tellin' me, I was a grown up I was confused, and you can hear it in my rhetoric In retrospect, I never should have made it back I wrote my Senator, and never got a letter back My friend, Chris, got killed for a Cadillac My man, Mike, died for a powder pack So understand why I could think that I was next Under attack, guns and crack Or the motherfuckin' police shoot us in the back And ah, they think it only happens to blacks And refuse to believe it almost happened to Stak Stabbed in the back Blood beatin' threw a heart filled with crack Soldier up, fought through that Injuries, a lot of players don't walk off I walked off, cause I ain't the type to walk on If you're family, you're suppose to love me when I'm wrong Be a man, and represent me when I'm gone Stones in the foundation get looked over But without them, the whole damn house falls over This is for the rocks that exist beneath me The block which gave me, a past to be me BB's are baby bullets, baby's in trainin' My people were bangin', before they called it bangin' Just chillin', hangin', words exchange One thing lead to another, all I heard was... (Gunshot) Even if I did die young, so what Nobody expected me to ever grow up Grandmama lectured me, you better grow up But there wasn't no tellin' me, I was a grown up Even if I did die young, so what Nobody expected me to ever grow up Grandmama lectured me, you better grow up But there wasn't no tellin' me, I was a grown up