Behind Closed Doors

Maybe I would say to you Everything I wanted to But you're halfway out the door I wish that I could say to you Everything I wanted to You don't listen anymore We haven't spoken since, that envelope I found untorn I wasn't proud of what I saw We haven't spoken since that letter that I found on the floor I don't read it through anymore Now everything has changed Remember when I wanted you, I needed you I knew that it would make me pay I thought that we could make it through 'cause you could choose I didn't wanna turn away Even though I needed to, I needed you more I needed you more Walking out to school each day Helped me take my mind away From destruction I called my own You called me a waste of time I offered up this heart of mine When you told me you felt alone. Maybe you were right, the times you told me I should leave I had faith in you wanting what was the best for me Maybe you were right, you shouted at me, face pasty-white I learned to recognise you from the state of your eyes. Now everything has changed Remember when I wanted you, I needed you I knew that it would make me pay I thought that we could make it through 'cause you could choose I didn't wanna turn away Even though I needed to, I needed you more I needed you more You got a substance heart A substance mind It tears you apart, it takes all your time You got a substance heart An infected mind It tears me apart, to watch you turn to white To watch you turn to white It was no fault of mine. Things have changed Remember when I wanted you, I needed you I knew that it would make me pay I thought that we could make it through when you could choose I didn't wanna turn away Even though I needed to, I needed you more I needed you more.