Traumatized

It really hurt me when they killed Shotty I was locked down in my cell and I had to read about it And when they killed Diddy, left him out in Philly We was young and gettin' money, man we used to run the city We was rockin' all them shows, fuckin' all them hoes (I know, I know, I know, I know) And when they killed power had to see him froze on the ground (I know, I know, I know, I know) Downtown, I can hear the sounds now When she walked up to that casket seen her son and fell down I drop tears for my niggas that ain't hear And still think about you even though that it been years 'Cause half the niggas that I grew up with is all dead All this pain and all this stressin' I should have a bald head 'Cause when my Aunt Rhonda died, she looked Tock in his eyes Saw death comin', when she seen it she just cried Prolly part of the reason we drink and we get high When I find the nigga that killed my daddy know I'ma ride Hope you hear me, I'ma kill you nigga (I know, I know, I know, I know) To let you know that I don't feel you nigga (I know, I know, I know, I know) Yea, you ripped my family apart and made my momma cry So when I see you nigga it's gon' be a homicide 'Cause I was only a toddler, you left me traumatized You made me man of the house and it was grindin' time So I'ma let this flame hit you just to let this pain hit you And for all them cloudy days I'ma let this rain hit you nigga I know, I know, I know, I know I know, I know, I know, I know You ripped my family apart and made my momma cry So when I see you nigga it's gon' be a homicide I know, I know, I know, I know I know, I know, I know, I know So I'ma let this flame hit you just to let this pain hit you And for all them cloudy days I'mma let this rain hit you nigga And I ain't ready Niggas wanna murder me I'm ridin' around heavy I think they wanna wet me like New Orleans and the levees But I got this mac elevy, these niggas'll never get me Lord knows, I got alotta homies in the dirt Niggas sprayin' metal tryna take you off the earth Really over nothin', tell me what it's worth Tryna take you out the game just to put you on a shirt I rose from the jungle like Derrick (I know, I know, I know, I know) Death to anybody that oppose my spirit (I know, I know, I know) My future lookin' brighter than this rose I'm starin' at We be runnin' trains on the hoes y'all cherish Rest in peace to my niggas, I swear I miss them to death (I know, I know, I know, I know) My army murder music, I'll let you listen to death (I know, I know, I know, I know) I'll have you walk with the reaper when hollows rip through your chest 'Cause if you throw 'em I throw back like Mitchell & Ness I'm gone I know, I know, I know, I know I know, I know, I know, I know You ripped my family apart and made my momma cry So when I see you nigga it's gon' be a homicide I know, I know, I know, I know I know, I know, I know, I know So I'mma let this flame hit you just to let this pain hit you And for all them cloudy days I'ma let this rain hit you nigga Yeah, man my life so real Last night I went to sleep and woke up with the chills Started with a dollar now I got a couple mil And I make a hundred thousand every time a nigga spill Man I almost got murked in front of the same church My dad got carried in, family got married That was in my older days, this is now, that was then Had the block jumpin' for them dollars, Shawn Marion Young nigga gon' get my own that's why I'm arrogant (I know, I know, I know, I know) Homie need the bail, for them bonds we'll bury 'em (I know, I know, I know, I know) Lock 'em like a terrier Breakin' all barriers Just to beat the trial, we go miles like Darius 'Cause cops tryna catch me, niggas tryna clap me (I know, I know, I know, I know) Haters runnin' at me, know they wanna get at me (I know, I know, I know, I know) And people got the nerve to ask why I don't look happy I did it for my niggas, and I did this shit for Kathy I know, I know, I know, I know I know, I know, I know, I know You ripped my family apart and made my momma cry So when I see you nigga it's gon' be a homicide I know, I know, I know, I know I know, I know, I know, I know So I'ma let this flame hit you just to let this pain hit you And for all them cloudy days I'ma let this rain hit you nigga I know, I know, I know, I know I know, I know, I know, I know