Still Smiling

Still there? Still there I re-count the black days Recollect some circumstances Even though it takes my sleep I recall the black days The mismatches and the end of some affairs I recall the black days Between Zenith and Nadir Is there a pattern anywhere? I recall the black days The blackest one, it's not the last one, but it's there And somewhere down there I'm smiling Still smiling I'm smiling From the bottom of my shapeless soul I'm smiling Still smiling I recount the black days Wade through all the shadows Even so it takes my sleep I recall the black days The cuts and the recovery From unnecessary growth I recall these black days As maybe grim and melanized But also colourful And somewhere down there I'm smiling Still smiling I'm smiling From the bottom of my fairtrade soul I'm smiling Still smiling I'm smiling Still smiling I'm smiling Even so, it hurts sometimes I'm smiling Yes, I'm smiling Still smiling From my hypothetical soul Still there? Still there