His Pain

Yesterday my nigga had told me his brother died A day before that his homeless uncle was cold outside A week before he seen the cancer in his mother's eyes Two weeks before that, couldn't pay his rent cause he lost his job A month before that he lost the custody of his daughter Six months before that her mother said she won't see her father And this before he did a year when them charges was brought up I shook my head, turned around then found a 100 dollars I don't know why He keep blessing me I don't know why He keep blessing me I don't know why He keep blessing me I don't know why He keep blessing me I don't know why, I don't know why, I don't know why Yesterday I invaded privacy of a home The day before that my partner had fronted me a zone A week before I had loaded bullets inside that chrome Two weeks before that I shot them bullets and he was gone A month before that I cursed my mother then slammed the door Six months before that I hit my woman, she hit the floor I stormed out then seen a black Honda Accord Them hollow tips missed me then hit that little boy So today I laid in my bed, stared at the ceiling Closed my eyes then asked myself how I was feeling I analyzed on how a saint can play the villain Is my life coincidental or just God willing I came to grips, jumped up, and looked out the window See my nigga had that same little boy that didn't know Bullets is nameless, I guess this is meant for Me to give them a 100 dollars then trash my pistol Now I know why He keep blessing me Now I know why He keep blessing me Now I know why He keep blessing me Now I know why He keep blessing me Now I know why, now I know why, now I know why So I can bless you So I can bless you So I can bless you Lord help me Cause I need You I know this weed is burning And I'm on drink number two But it's all to soothe the pain from this Cold, cold world Sometimes I think You can help me But this buzz here is temporary So I'm talking to You This sick world will drive a sane man crazy Birds dropping out the sky, daughters having their fathers' babies And this the news I hear When my God kids, nieces, and nephews turn a year I wonder, will it get better A little cheddar, when it get better But the rest of that's cash Make last year's Christmas gift you, my bad But somehow He keep blessing me But somehow He keep blessing me But somehow He keep blessing me But somehow He keep blessing me But somehow, but somehow, but somehow If I just keep the faith I know You'll be right there Sometimes it may not seem that You are there But You're there I feel You're there You're everywhere And I thank You for Protecting me in these streets From danger seen and unseen I never know What happened the night I wasn't there Something told me leave so I left It was the next morning Three got shot after the club All listening to that small voice Oh you saved my life