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suicide note (freestyle)
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Hip-Hop/Rap
suicide note (freestyle) was released on June 1, 2023 by 1751979 Records DK2 as a part of the album empathy !
album cover
Release DateJune 1, 2023
Label1751979 Records DK2
LanguageEnglish
Melodicness
Acousticness
Valence
Danceability
Energy
BPM86

Music Video

Music Video

Credits

PERFORMING ARTISTS
Jvsph
Jvsph
Background Vocals, Rap
COMPOSITION & LYRICS
Joseph Hernandez
Joseph Hernandez
Songwriter
PRODUCTION & ENGINEERING
Jvsph
Jvsph
Engineer, Producer

Lyrics

"This week we are tacking the difficult topic of suicide
As numbers rise at startling rates especially among young people
Yes the suicide rates jumped 33% between
1999 and 2019, and then there was a small decrease in 2020
But to put it in perspective 46,000 died by suicide in 2020
That's about, 1600 fewer than the year before
It's not much, so it's encouraging
But it's still disturbing
Melanie's joining us now and Mel there's still
Something that these numbers don't show"
My mind is a prison it's a battle between myself
I can tell you all the times that I almost killed myself
It's a war in my mind
And it seems I have no help
I know that God is watching
But I can't control my health
My life is a curse
Break everything I touch, I make it worse
I'm so hurt, crying don't even work
Cuz' all the tears all falling to the dirt
Now there's tall grass everywhere it gives the demons time to lurk
I have these thoughts that I can't tell a therapist
Because they wouldn't understand
They would think I'm a crazy man
But it's getting out of hand
One day I'll be buried in this land
We all die soon anyway, you feel me?
So what's the point of wanting to get better and start healing?
Might as well just end it all now while I can
Fight everyday and I don't think I ever ran
I don't like to vent because no one understands
Do you understand?
I'm a young kid so my mind is all over the place
But one thing I know for sure is I can never love my face
It seems like I'm getting overlapped in a race
Because I never fit in I never got that popular phase
I don't know how it tastes
My life is such a waste
I'm the definition of a toothbrush without the toothpaste
I'm the definition of copying but never paste
Damn, it seems my life is just a waste
It seems like my life is just a waste, wait
"But some groups saw huge increases in suicide numbers
Young people of color
Notably, black people aged 15-34
And Hispanic people 25-34"
I don't really fuck with ppl that's just the way I feel
Everybody fake and ain't nobody keepin it real
I overthink everything
If you say "nice shirt"
I'll wonder if you're making fun of me or complimenting me
These hoes fake, like WWE
All that fake wrestling
My eyes burn
As these lies turn and become my enemy
This ain't toy story so my boy you got no friend in me
He ain't sipping on the Hennessy
I wonder if this is really my destiny?
The depression never went away it just hid from me
Someone come kill me, someone get rid of me
I used to have epiphany
But I've never loved myself so I don't know what got into me
"Now there is no single cause of suicide
While depression is the most common condition
Associated with it, it is often undiagnosed
Or untreated, so people are left with no resources"
Written by: Joseph Hernandez
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