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Crash First
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Crash First was released on June 19, 2026 by Rebel Music / gamma. as a part of the album Sweet American Boy
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Credits

PERFORMING ARTISTS
honestav
honestav
Lead Vocals
mgk
mgk
Vocals
No Love For The Middle Child
No Love For The Middle Child
Background Vocals, Cello, Guitar, Drum Programming
COMPOSITION & LYRICS
Avrey Freeman
Avrey Freeman
Composer
Colson Baker
Colson Baker
Composer
Andrew Migliore
Andrew Migliore
Composer
PRODUCTION & ENGINEERING
No Love For The Middle Child
No Love For The Middle Child
Producer
Joe LaPorta
Joe LaPorta
Mastering Engineer
Adam Hawkins
Adam Hawkins
Mixing Engineer

Lyrics

[Chorus]
I fill my lungs with half my worth
And try to go numb so that I can't hurt
'Cause at my highs I'm at my worst
And I can't fly until I crash first
[Verse 1]
Everyone's seeing my screaming
Been that since birth
Everyone's seeing this money I'm blowing, but nobody's seeing the work
Look, Dad, I'm high like you, for me, the pills don't work
I like digging in a bag, I like smoking till it hurts
[Verse 2]
And if my eyes roll back
Then let the tears come first
Been holding those in too long
Faking it like I'm too strong
[Verse 3]
And when my eyes roll back
Throw my body in the dam
And them things in my pocket
Will you hide them from my fam?
Will you tell the world I loved hard?
Can you make them understand
That all the things I was struggling with
Didn't make me less a man?
[Verse 4]
And all of the trauma I'm trying to bury probably make me who I am
Think growing up broken was necessary so I could fix my fam
And part of me died on this death bed holding my daddy's hand
Just tell my daughters their father will drown if that means they can swim
[Chorus]
I fill my lungs with half my worth
And try to go numb so that I can't hurt
'Cause at my highs I'm at my worst
And I can't fly until I crash first
[Verse 5]
I know that it takes time, I'm coming to get you
Walking a straight line, I need me a breakthrough
I'm smoking a grape vine, sippin' a grape juice
Choppin' a white line
It's getting harder to face you
Oh God
[Verse 6]
Yeah
[Verse 7]
Take my hands off the wheel, I'm speeding
I said I hate you when I left, I didn't mean it
Open wounds from my nose, still bleeding
Only you can clean me up, I'm still fiending
Cold sweats and these meds can't treat it
No sleep, all party through the weekend
Karosene, black smoke I'm breathing
Somebody save me, I've been falling off the deep end
[Refrain]
All I know is I don't know how to give a fuck (I don't)
All I know is I don't know how to give a fuck (I don't)
I couldn't give a fuck (No)
I never gave a fuck (No)
All I know is I don't know how to give a fuck
[Verse 8]
Under pressure, I don't got control of my aggression
Under the influence, I'm 'bout to make a bad impression
[Verse 9]
On the dresser it's some ammunition and a weapon
And I've been smoking on this shit since I was adolescent
[Verse 10]
Three sixes, I'm trying to get lucky number seven
I wonder if they got a spot for junkies up in heaven
[Verse 11]
Leave a mess if they gon find my body in the bedroom
And they can listen to this song if they want my confession
[Refrain]
Take my hands off the wheel, I'm speeding
I said I hate you when I left, I didn't mean it
Open wounds from my nose, still bleeding
Only you can clean me up, I'm still fiending
Cold sweats and these meds can't treat it
No sleep, all party through the weekend
Karosene, black smoke I'm breathing
Somebody save me, I've been falling off the deep end
[Refrain]
All I know is I don't know how to give a fuck (I don't)
All I know is I don't know how to give a fuck (I don't)
I couldn't give a fuck (No)
I never gave a fuck (No)
All I know is I don't know how to give a fuck
[Outro]
Go, go, go, go, I'm getting closer to death
Go, go, go, go, I'm getting closer
Go, go, go, go, I'm getting closer to death
Go, go, go, go, I'm getting closer
Written by: Andrew Migliore, Avrey Freeman, Colson Baker
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