I know you're there I can feel you waiting

I know you care that's what makes it terrifying

Every time you get a little closer I find something wrong

Been protecting this position for so long it feels like home

I rearrange the furniture so no one learns the layout

I perfected the performance of a person with a way out

Always ready always packed always one foot at the door

Tell myself that I'm just cautious but I've heard that one before

Truth is I don't know what happens if I let you past the wall

Truth is I'm more scared of staying than I ever was of falling

And I can feel it happening again

That familiar cold shoulder creepin' in

But this time I can see it for what it is

And I don't wanna do this, I don't wanna do this

Let me in let me in

Somebody let me in

Let me in let me in

Before I disappear again

I know how it ends when I don't

I've done it enough times to know

So let me in let me in

Before I go

See the logical thing is to keep what I built intact

Every scar on these walls is a lesson and a fact

About what happens when you hand someone the keys to where you live

About what happens when you love somebody more than you can give

So I catalogued the exits and I memorized the signs

I got real good at leaving before someone crosses lines

But you haven't crossed a single one and somehow that's the problem

'Cause I keep waiting for the fall and you just never give me reason (give me reason)

And I can feel it happening again

That familiar cold shoulder creepin' in

But this time I know exactly what it costs

And I don't wanna lose this, I don't wanna lose this

Let me in let me in

Somebody let me in

Let me in let me in

Before I disappear again

I know how it ends when I don't

I've done it enough times to know

So let me in let me in

Before I go

I have spent my whole life leaving rooms before they could ask me to

I have spent my whole life shrinking down so no one sees what I've been through

But you already see it and you're standing there regardless

And maybe that's the thing that finally breaks this

I don't need you to fix me I just need you to stay

I don't need you to save me I just need you to say

That whatever's underneath all of this damage and defenses

Is worth knowing is worth seeing is worth all of this

Because I think I'm worth it too I'm just scared to act like it

Scared if I believe it then I'll have something left to lose

But maybe having something left to lose is the whole point

Maybe that's not weakness maybe that's the bridge you cross to get to something real

Let me in let me in

Somebody let me in

Let me in let me in

I'm done disappearing again

I know how it ends when I don't

I've done it enough times to know

So let me in let me in

Let me in

I'm letting you in (I'm letting you in)

I'm letting you in

I'm done running (I'm done running)

I'm letting you in