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Nightshade
Alternative
Nightshade was released on May 27, 2026 by owari-chan as a part of the album Anesthesia
album cover
Release DateMay 27, 2026
Labelowari-chan
LanguageJapanese
Melodicness
Acousticness
Valence
Danceability
Energy
BPM149

Music Video

Music Video

Credits

PERFORMING ARTISTS
owari-chan
owari-chan
Vocals
COMPOSITION & LYRICS
owari-chan
owari-chan
Composer
PRODUCTION & ENGINEERING
owari-chan
owari-chan
Producer

Lyrics

I don’t wanna die
I just hate being awake
I just hate being awake
わたしは変わったわけじゃない
ただ壊れないよう shape-shifted my mind
元気なフリ 傷隠す sleeves
朝をやり過ごすための routine
「なんでもない」
That’s the magic phrase
言えば nobody looks too deep these days
痛みを麻痺させ fade away
気づけば heart went miles away
泣いてたあの子 still inside
声を殺して survive survive
誰にも見つからないまま cry
静かに死んでく every night
Fell down crying as a kid
Now I hide cuts beneath my fits
健康だったあの子も sick
夜になると pills and drinks
“永遠”とか信じてた eyes
今は死に方ばっか検索してる nights
煙草嫌いだったはずなのに
Now I’m inhaling just to feel alright
シラフじゃ breathing feels too hard
アルコールで dissolve my heart
これが「大人になる」って art?
Then I don’t wanna grow up at all
I don’t wanna grow up anymore
I don’t wanna grow up anymore
I don’t wanna grow up anymore
Every year just hurts more
Static
3AM scrolling endlessly
Blue light dripping like enemy
Fake love fake care fake empathy
All this shit just keeps consuming me
Learned how to smile with dead eyes
Learned how to hide every bad night
High functioning sadness, that’s my type
Breaking down while saying “I’m alright”
Another drink
Another pill
Another night I can’t sit still
I don’t wanna die for real
I just wanna stop how living feels
Used to cry when I scraped my knees
Now I bleed where nobody sees
Guess that’s what adulthood means
Pretty self-destruction on HD screens
Still awake
Still numb
Still pretending I’m someone
If surviving means becoming this
Maybe I was safer as a kid
泣き虫だったあの子も
Now she laughs with vacant souls
「助けて」さえ言えなくて
Turned silence into overdose
愛されたかっただけなのに
Now I push everybody from me
未来を信じ眠ってた eyes
Can’t see tomorrow in my mind
Pour another drink
Stay sedated
Brain gone static
Overstimulated
If this is what “growing up” is
Why the fuck does it feel like dying slow?
Nothing feels good sober anymore
Nothing feels real sober anymore
Nothing feels warm sober anymore
I don’t know myself anymore
Written by: owari-chan
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