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When It's Good, I'm Scared
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Techno
When It's Good, I'm Scared was released on May 26, 2026 by The Universe books as a part of the album Virtual Inferno
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Release DateMay 26, 2026
LabelThe Universe books
LanguageEnglish
Melodicness
Acousticness
Valence
Danceability
Energy
BPM136

Credits

PERFORMING ARTISTS
Ember Static
Ember Static
Synthesizer
COMPOSITION & LYRICS
joseph bostedt
joseph bostedt
Songwriter
PRODUCTION & ENGINEERING
Nero
Nero
Executive Producer

Lyrics

I see love every morning
In the way you say my name
In the little things you don't notice
In the way you make a place
And I hold it like a secret
Like a fire inside my hands
Terrified if I breathe too hard
It'll disappear again
You are everything I prayed for
Everything I said I'd keep
But every time the room goes quiet
My mind won't let me sleep
Even medicated, my thoughts still run
A thousand miles ahead of us
You say, "stay here," but I'm already
Mourning something I haven't lost
When it's good, I'm scared
When you hold me, I prepare
For the silence, for the leaving
For the moment you're not there
And I hate the way I love you
like I'm waiting for the end
You give me every reason to stay
But my head keeps whispering, don't depend
You are enough
God, you are
I'm the one who never is
I'm trying hard to be better
Not the person I was then
Not the one who learned from heartbreak
How to doubt and to defend
Being cheated, being lied to
Being led on leaves a mark
Now every light feels temporary
Every promise feels too dark
And you haven't done a thing
To deserve the weight I bring
You love me in the daylight
I just keep fighting shadows in my skin
I tell myself, this time is different
I tell myself, just let it breathe
But old ghosts know exactly where to touch
To make a future feel like grief
When it's good, I'm scared
Every laugh becomes a prayer
Every "see you tomorrow" turns
Into what if you're not there?
And I try to tell you softly
what I never say enough
It isn't that you're not enough
It's that I don't know how to feel loved
I feel lost in rooms beside you
I feel lonely in your arms
Not because you fail to reach me
You reach farther than the dark
I just don't know how to believe
Someone could look at me and mean it
Not as a name they used to know
Not as a passing season
I mean the kind of love that stays
The kind that doesn't leave
The kind that says, I can't imagine
My life without you breathing next to me
When it's good, I'm scared
And it's good God, it's rare
You're the best thing I have touched
And that's what makes me so aware
That I could lose you
That I could break
That my past still floods the room
Even when you beg it not to stay
So if I hold on too tightly
If my heart sounds like a war
It's only because I love you
More than I have ever loved before
You are enough
You always were
I just wish, for once
I could believe
I might be too
Written by: joseph bostedt
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