It's not easy to take control

It's hard when your soul is a bowl

And I knew, from the spoon

That you would be tough to lose

And I don't, wanna know

Not the worst to be confused

I told a lie and I said that I couldn't fly

So I jumped out of the sky and I died, but I faked it

I always said it was enough and never myself grow up

So now I look at what I've done, and I hate it

Theres a child in the moss, I think he thinks that he's the boss

He even hung it on a cross and betrayed it

He made a promise that he broke, I never let anything go

So when he pours another bowl I don't break it

It's not easy to take control

It's hard when your soul is a bowl

And I knew, that you swoon

And I'd never be your moon

Cause it's dried up, and I can't make my mind up

You leave me all alone and somehow take my fucking time up

So you wait can wait till later, cause I gotta put this sign up

I don't know how or why, but together we get tied up

I'll make you feel like a dog and put you out for adoption

Instead of living for you, when all I am is an option

Cause you get what you get, don't get upset, don't make a bet that you'll regret, lie in your bed, you better

Now I'm gonna bite in, and you're gonna like it

God I'm so excited, cant wait, teeth are grinding

It's so interesting, and it's so obscene

Talk a lot to both sides, not a lot of dopamine

So when you gonna realize, when you gonna relapse?

Never really surprised, bruises on your knee caps

I live in my own world, only fit in my jeans

Don't feel like a real girl, just somebody in between

So I pack a laptop, 20 fingers, and a mic

And I'm driving for 24 hours straight down 95

If they ask for id then I'm taking out a knife

Ask if we got a problem, and there never was alright

Everybody's gotta talk, Everybody's gonna say

But nobodies gonna hear it cause nobody got away

Yeah I want the whole case, I wanna lick the seal

The dollar store mace won't make me feel

Cause it's gotta kind of pleasant smell, I wanna keep around

It's like a fire roasted parachute, I got you laughing now

And so I plant another weapon just to set em off their track

You'll never see my face again, I'll laugh and shoot and turn my back

Uh climax, kick back

But I can't relax

Broken like some sea glass

Maybe you could see that

Wanna feel it real bad, honey on my teabag

Cut, bruise, pimple, scab

Can I give some feedback?

If you treat em' like dirt, then they stick like mud

Got a bullet in the shirt but my pocket got a slug

Didn't see his face, but I heard the body thud

Now I'm circling back just to clean the blood

Your bitch looks like an ogre

Yeah your bitch looks like a troll

My thoughts are taking over

And I just cant be controlled

I got enough going on off the books

You little pussy ass bitch giving me dirty looks

It's not easy to take control

It's hard when your soul is a bowl

You should know, cause you go

And you tell more then you show

You deny, and you cry

Caught so easily in your lies

Oh, oh, oh oh