I'm tryna get numb nobody knows

Do I got me someone

But I'm still alone

Do you say that you love me

I cannot be sure should I be alone

If I came clean from all my lies you would cut our ties

As I slowly die you would think to yourself"it serves him right"

My venom's been injected and infected like a serpent bite

I'm heavily sedated couldn't feel remorse

My heart's been deflated from the cold

I can't feel anymore

Don't tell me you love me I've heard that before

Worked out so many problems everything's sore

Ever since you left I sit curled at the door

Now I think to myself I deserve what I get and more

So I inflict it on myself and get scared of the gore

I'm demented deranged and my brain is distorted

Important in the worst ways to the people who hate me

Yeah I'm going insane and you better stay away or I'll make you crazy

I'm tryna get numb nobody knows

Do I got me someone

But I'm still alone

Do you say that you love me

I cannot be sure should I be alone

Addiction's in my system it's not gonna go away

Call it pension when I quit then I still gotta pay

Everything's been weighing on my mental but in a different way

Try to stand my ground while the sky's turning gray I might drown

The calm before the storm is confound

It's been nonstop

But maybe I'm too sensitive

If I never learn my lesson then you probably should stop questioning

If you hate the grades of my aggression then quit testing them

You got your hands reached while I'm sucking my teeth

I'm low life with no complexity

I've given void the rest of me

Dead to creed

Mess with greed

Withering and lessening

Protecting what is left till death shows a new degree

Doing my best to be someone who can't reach low enough to bring the darkness underneath

Serotonin makes me sad but it's something that I need