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CURSE
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CURSE was released on July 24, 2026 by David Gresham Records as a part of the album GEMINI - EP
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Release DateJuly 24, 2026
LabelDavid Gresham Records
LanguageEnglish
Melodicness
Acousticness
Valence
Danceability
Energy
BPM95

Credits

PERFORMING ARTISTS
Ayrton Christopher van Wyngaard
Ayrton Christopher van Wyngaard
Solo, Vocals
COMPOSITION & LYRICS
Ayrton Christopher van Wyngaard
Ayrton Christopher van Wyngaard
Composer, Lyrics
PRODUCTION & ENGINEERING
CHXRL
CHXRL
Producer

Lyrics

Lately I've been trying not to lose my mind
Wanna feel alive, but I've died inside
Don't know what to do when I get so high
Get so high, but I feel so low
Lost myself and I've lost control
I don't have the map to this lonely road
And every time I face my mind
I find myself falling onto 
things I should let go of
Fear inside my bones
I've wasted so much time
'Cause I'm too selfish to learn
I think it's time I grow up
Bring my side and show up
Wasted so much time
But I'm still lifting this curse
I'm lifting this curse
Lately I've been feeling sick to my bones
The harder that I try
I end up digging a hole for myself
And those around me
I'm just better alone
I've been putting up my art in places they don't belong
Imagine if the Mona Lisa was put up in a classroom
With an absent teacher
In a room full of kids who had no guidance either
That's how I feel in this town
Giving my art to people
Who don't appreciate the bigger things
It's about the little things
But I got bigger dreams
I just wanna show the world the bigger me
I just gotta let go of the "kid in me"
And things I should let go of
Fear inside my bones
I've wasted so much time
'Cause I'm too selfish to learn
I think it's time I grow up
Bring my side and show up
Wasted so much time
But I'm still lifting this curse
I'm lifting this curse
Looking at my life feels like an open casket
I look at what I built and watch it burn to ashes
I'm finding peace in myself
And all these thoughts collapsing
Slowly but surely, as time passes
I'll find passion
I'm sick of trying
I'm sick of lying
I'm sick of fighting all these stupid fears
I've been dying just for some quiet
peace that I've been wanting
I've been biting my tongue
Hope I find what I lost
I've been climbing, and for what?
For a pointless number one spot?
And these venues underpaying
And barely giving me slots
Guess I gotta do it different
Y'all don't know what I got
Guess I gotta do it different
Y'all don't know what I got
Things I should let go of
Fear inside my bones
I've wasted so much time
'Cause I'm too selfish to learn
I think it's time I grow up
Bring my side and show up
Wasted so much time
But I'm still lifting this curse
I'm lifting this curse
Written by: Ayrton Christopher van Wyngaard
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